Sooyoung and Jiwoo look so happy together now, but I refuse to believe that Sooyoung is over me. She might say that she doesn't love me, but the way she moaned when we had sex says otherwise.
I spend the next few weeks feeling miserable and sorry for myself, watching Sooyoung as she lovingly touches and talks and laughs with Jiwoo. Yerim tells me I need to stop staring.
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One night as Yerim, Jungeun, and I prepare for bed, I ask, "Hey Yerim, could I borrow your... vibrator tonight?"
Yerim looks up, confused. "Sure. What do you want it for?"
I wince. "That's none of your business."
Yerim reaches under her bed for her secret stash of sex toys.
"You better not be trying to win Sooyoung back. That shit is over with," Jungeun says, already lying in her bunk.
Yerim looks at me skeptically, but hands over her purple vibrator.
"I'm with Jungeun on this one," she says.
"I know, but—"
"Don't bother explaining yourself, Jinsoul. Just try not to fuck anything up too badly okay?" Yerim turns around to finish getting ready for bed.
I know that Jungeun and Yerim are right, I shouldn't be trying to win Sooyoung back, but I can't help it. I sigh and I turn to leave for Sooyoung's room nonetheless.
I stand outside Sooyoung's door and take a few deep breaths.
"You've got this Jinsoul," I tell myself. "You'll get her back. You'll show her what she's been missing."
I shake myself loose and knock on the door. A moment passes before Sooyoung opens the door a crack. She looks to see who it is before opening the door fully.
"Jinsoul," she says, looking surprised. "What are you doing here?"
"Can I come in?" I ask, ignoring her question.
"Uh, sure."
Sooyoung steps aside for me and I walk quickly into her dorm room. The moment I hear the door close, I start talking.
"I miss you Sooyoung. I know you're with Jiwoo, but it makes me...furious to see you so happy with her. I want us to feel like that."
Sooyoung opens her mouth, then closes it before she says, "Jinsoul, I—I don't know what to say."
"Maybe you don't need to say anything," I say, a sly grin spreads across my face.
I push Sooyoung against her bedroom wall and clamp my hand over her mouth when she starts to protest. I pull out the vibrator from behind my back, grinning mischievously as I watch Sooyoung's eyes grow in horror.
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✔ Drowning: ChuVesSoul
Fanfiction"I feel like I'm drowning... But she is the water, and maybe I don't want to be saved. Maybe I want to sink so deeply, deeply in love that there's no chance of coming back up for air. And yet, maybe I already have." - Part XIII Finished! Disclaimer:...
