More Than Words (a Pesy story)

just as much as I'm a part of you

"'Course we can. Is everything alright?" I ask, rubbing my hand along her leg.

     "Everything's wonderful," she says with a smile. "I just thought we should talk about everything. Also my mam called, and I have an idea that I want to run by you."

     "Alright," I say with a smile. "Do you want to start with us, or with your mum?"

     "Hmm, let's start with us," she says, scrunching her nose and then smiling.

     "Fine with me," I say, pressing a kiss to her cheek.

     "I'd like to date you," she says matter-of-factly.

     "Fine with me," I repeat, and she laughs. "As long as you're fine with the fact that I have a baby and like, a post-baby body."

     "As I've said before, and will say again, you have the nicest bum I've ever seen. And I love Peanut, you know that," she says with a smile.

     "Yeah, I know," I say, returning her smile. "Promise you won't give up on her if things go south between me and you?" I say, almost nervously.

     "'Course not," Perrie says softly. 

     I avoid her eyes.

     "Hey, look at me," she says, propping my chin in her hand so our gazes meet. "I will never give up on either of you."

     "But what if this goes bad?" I ask her, voicing what is really my only fear with this whole thing. "What if we get together and then I do something wrong and you hate me?"

     "Jes," she says, pushing at my knee until I adjust so we're facing each other.

     "Yeah?" I ask softly, feeling very near the point of tears.

     "I love you. You have been my best friend for nearly 8 years now, and I just want to see if we have a shot at something more. If not, no harm no foul. You'll still be my best friend, and I'll still be here for you and Parker, always. I want to be the one you call at 3 in the morning when you need help, always. I'm going to be in your life, and in the baby's life, always. Okay?"

     I nod my head, letting a couple of tears sneak out. "Okay."

     "Okay," she says with a smile, wiping the drops from my cheeks with her thumbs. "Now, that brings me to part 2 of this conversation: my mother."

     I laugh at the change in her tone, and then nod for her to go on.

     "She wants me to come up and visit for the weekend. I want you and Parker to come with me," She says a little nervously.

     It seems extreme, but the thought of being without Perrie for the weekend has me proper scared.

     "Yeah, okay," I say, nodding. "Long as its okay with Debbie."

     "She'll be thrilled," Perrie says with a laugh. "I was worried you'd think its too much too soon."

     "I mean, it sort of is, but... we already live together," I say with a laugh. "We're quite good at too much too soon."

     "That's exactly what I thought," she says with a laugh. She leans in for a kiss and I oblige, happy when Perrie goes to deepen it but suddenly distracted by the kicking at my leg.

     I break away from Perrie to find Parker much closer to me than she was a couple minutes ago. And on her back.

     "Did she roll over?" Perrie asks, clearly thinking the same thing I am.