Forever Is A Promise

¶ Chapter Seven ¶

I don't know exactly how to feel about harry.

Its like I want to fuck him right in this restaurant infront of all these people and I also just want to never talk to him for being scared he'll hurt me again.

I never really planned on getting all dressed up but Hayley came over and told me to do something. So I did.

She helped with the hair and some of my outfit making but the rest I did. Walking towards harry at the park made me almost cry and hyperventilat.

All the memories of walking hand in hand towards that bench, kissing, hugging, laughing and just being inlove hurt. I wanted that back, always have and probably always will.

I respect the fact that he is with Louis because I would have felt absolutely horrid if my harry went to go see an ex just to help them and then find out later on they were fucking in the janitors closet.

I haven't made any moves he's mostly made them or just did things that was questionable but I didn't comment nor do anything in those situations. I wish I had.

He has more tattoos than before and his hair is longer too. Shoulder length to be exact.

I noticed our tattoo on his arm isnt surrounded by other tattoos unlike the others which have so many mixed together they almost looked like one.

When he hugged me I fell in love again. He smelt like vanilla beans and a hint of chocolate mint. It was addicting.

I felt safe in his arms so much I almost kissed his chest and hugged him closer as if nothing happened between us.

Then I remembered.

Those arms are supposed to be Louis'.

We went to the restaurant after walking around and we both got hungry so we went to one of the dinners around town.

What I did not expect was for that waiter to flirt with me so much to the point of feeling almost uncomfortable. I also didn't expect for harry to give a look of just disgust and hate. If looks could kill.

When he talked about Alex I wanted to leave. I hate talking about him but it was bound to happen especially when the only reason he's back in my life right now is because of that ass hole.

I noticed how he was starring at me after he was done talking about alex. I felt love and affection towards him. Maybe he noticed. I hope not.

While eating he sometimes commented on the food or the surroundings but we mostly were quiet eating the delicious food.

After we were done we went out again and just walked around. Some more fans noticed us I helped take pictures then we would keep walking and talking.

At the end we hugged and said our goodbyes. Since he's on break for two weeks and the next spot on tour would be the city next to us and then the show after that is L.A he'll give me free tickets to come and see him. Obviously V.I.P since I cant be in a large crowd because of my anxiety, which is why I like never go to concerts unless its someone I know or if its someone haley or harry knows so they can get me in V.I.P so that my anxiety doesn't kick up.

•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• OK SO I PIERCED MY OWN NOSE AND IM 😭😭😎😎
LIKE IT IS SO FUCKING COOL AHHHHHHHHH