my mistake (hawksilver)

it's called Civil war for a reason

(Pietro) 
It had been a year since he died. almost to the day. nobody brought him up. like he never happened. like the hawkeye was nothing but a memory.  like an imaginary friend you kids had when they were young, you remember the name but not why.  I sigh and walk outside to my sister, her face pale, and I run over getting closer. my hands moving to cup her face.
"Wanda?" I ask looking at the fear in her eyes, my hand resting on the side of her face. I press a kiss to the side of her head. 
"they are fighting Pietro," she says and hugs me tightly, the fear showing in her face. 

"the Sovokia accords" the man starts as we sit in the meeting, I'm already rolling my eyes. this idiot got to be kidding me. I watch the video playout, waiting to see Clint playing the hero, but of course, the screen shows everyone but him, the Camera even catches my blue speed.  the man talks about how "you heroes need to be stopped" 

I stand up and Wanda's hand grabs mine, almost like a plea to not say anything stupid. 
"I'm from Sovokia, we were at war, a war that nobody comes to stop. It was Sovokia vs Sovokia, don't stop the avengers, without them none of us would be here," I say and make my way to leave with Tony starts laughing. 
"Really Sovokia?" he asks and I stop, turning on my heels. Steve stands up and looks at Tony with a wave of anger. 
"No, the kid is right," and they start to fight. 

I walk out of the room to call Laura, the only person who still talked about him,  it takes a few moments before she picks up. 
"how's His favourite hero?" she opens with that every time and I can feel the heartbreak but smile none the less. 
"I'm okay, just stupid rules might be coming in, how's his favourite mother?" it had quickly become something we did, she was my best friend, fulling just under Wanda and....well Clint. 
"I'm okay, what are the stupid rules?" she asks sounding worried and there is a crashing sound and she Laughs. 

"Nathaniel Pietro do you wanna say hi?" she asks, she stops talking and picks up the young boy. 
"Pietro!" he babbles into the phone, though it sounds wrong, more like Pyro. 
"Hey kid," I say and frown at how much I sound like Clint right now.  'you the reason that these kids have to grow up without there dad,' I frown and keep talking to Nathaniel trying to sound happier then I am. he babbles something then Laura is back on the line. 

"hey, favourite speedster," she starts before I let out a sob. I've been crying so much more since we lost him. "oh hawkeye," she had passed the nickname on to me much to me debate and pleas that it was his, not mine. 
"Laura that's the thing, he's gone! Hawkeye is gone," My voice broke and I lean against the wall, my Lean body now feeling weak, like I was made of straw. there's quite and she lets out a shaky breath. 
"I miss him too," she says and I can hear their kids running around the house, there bare feet hitting the wooden floorboards. making a slapping sound as they run. 

"Laura, I love him," my voice comes out shakily broken. I can hear her breath catch and the kids stop running around the wooden floor. 
"I know, you should come over soon, the kids miss you," there are a few moments before the kids make a yell of agreement. the smile creeps across my face. 
"I can be there in forty minutes, tops," 
"forty? you're getting slow," 

(Laura) 
Pietro ran onto the farm after twenty minutes out of breath and red-faced. there where slight tear marks still on his face, but I wasn't sure what pain made him cry. weather it was the memory of Clint or running faster and father then he really should. 

Lilia and Cooper come running downstairs and flung themselves at the poor man. never the less he hugs them both and complents how big and strong they are looking, his accent coming out thick. the kids seem to love his voice though. 
"You look so much like your father," Pietro say to Cooper then hugs him tightly. a sad smile painted on to his face. Pietro looked like he was made of terracotta, a smile painted on his face. like a sad doll. 

"I missed you," Lilia say and takes Pietro hand into hers, then outruns Nathaniel. he's small legs knocking him over as he runs forward. he small hands clinging to Pietro long legs. 
"speedy," Pietro greets the little boy with a ruffle of his hair. 
"stay?" he cries into his pants his face now red with tears. "stay!" 
Pietro bends down and picks up the small boy and holds him to his chest. 
"stay? that is Exacly what i'll do," he says and hugs him tightly. I smile, it's the happiest I'd seen him in a while. 
"what you didn't see that coming?" as soon as the words leave his mouth he's crying again, shaky sobs leaving his lungs.