The Night We Meet

July 17th 2016: THEN LEAVE (part 8) - Dinner With A Side Of Tears [Syd's POV]

When we finally got to Ricky's place to pick him up, and my heart sank for about the 55th time today. I parked in the street in front of the house. "I don't know if I can do this... Actually, I know that I can't do that I can't do this... Trevor..." I said panicking for my life.

I literally thought that I am going to faint in front steering wheel... Scratch that, I KNOW that I am.

"Shit..." I said slapping Trevor's arm. "Why is Gillian's car here?"

"I don't, maybe..." He said.

"Whatever. Could you please call then, so I can get the hell out of this neighborhood?" I asked.

"Yeah." He said picking up his phone. He called Ricky and about five minutes later Ricky and Kian were walking out the door and down to my car. "Hey," I said from the drivers seat. They got in and I took off.

"So, how are you doing?" Ricky said.

"I have been better..." I said at the stop light.

"I know how you feel..." Kian said.

"Thanks for being there for me guys. I just need some normal friends for now." I said. I saw them from the back seat smiling. "Okay, where am I going?" I asked them.

"Diner?" Ricky asked.

"That works." Kian asked.

"Sure." I said.

"Okay." Trevor said. I make the next left and about ten minutes later we were out to dinner where Kian order breakfast for dinner.

"And for you ma'am?"

"Awe, nothing for me. Just a glass of water, please. No lemon." I told her. The waitress nodded and walked away.

"Not eating?" Kian asked.

"Nah, I'm not hungry." I told the table. The all smiled and Ricky put up his drink. "What?" I asked.

"It's almost ten o'clock. I just don't feel like eating..." I said clearly trying to cover something up.

Trying to hide the real reason why...

"So, how you spoken to him?" Kian asked.

"Kian!!" Ricky emphasized.

"Yeah, I don't think I want to talk about it." Trevor said.

"No, guys..." I said with a sigh. "I'm fine..." I said, I turned my head away and tried to hold back my tears.

"Sorry." Kian admitted.

"No, I'm..." I started.

"Syd?" Ricky said from next to me.

"Sydney?" Trevor said.

"No, I'm... Excuse me. I said getting up from the table. Kian looked behind and saw me run outside. "I'll go talk to her." Kian said.

"No, I'll go." Ricky said.

I was outside, sitting on the sidewalk with my face in my hands. "Hey..." Ricky said. I looked up to him while I whipped my tears. "What's wrong?" He asked.

"I thought that I could forget about him when he was in another state, but I keep getting text from him and missed calls an knowing that he was there when I picked you guys up and knowing wasn't getting n the car with us, I just wanted to loose, but then Kian asked me... What he asked me and I just couldn't hold it back anymore." I said started to tear up again. Ricky sat next to me one the sidewalk. "I know it's..." And then my phone rang. "Oh great... Something to get my mind of things..." Ricky looked at my phone and then took it and hung it up. "Here, just take it. I don't want it." I said. "Look. I don't want to ruin your guys' night, so I am just going to go. Call me when you guys are need a ride back home." I said. I got up and started to get back into the diner to get my wallet and key when I felt a hand on my shoulder.

"Syd. No, stay. We need you hear." Ricky said.

"I don't know... I don't want to bring you guys down." I said.

"Come on... I'll make Kian shut up." He told me.

"Alright, fine I'll stay." I said. He got up. "But you have to help me up." I said reaching my hands out to him. He pulled me up and we started to walk inside. "Wait, you didn't even come into our house, how did you know Connor was back in LA?"

"Oh come on, why else would Gillian's care be in your driveway?" I asked.

"I told her to move it into the garage..." Ricky said. I laughed.

"And besides, I still follow him on twitter. He tweeted about him coming home." I said. Ricky rolled his eyes and opened the door for me. "Thanks." I said. I took a deep breath and we walked back to the table.

"You okay?" Trevor asked me.

"Not really..." I said. "But, that's okay." I continued.

"Good." Trevor said. "Forget him." Trevor said.

"Thanks." I said. "But I don't that's possible." I said. "Especially I hang out with Connor's best friends." I said.

"She has a point." Ricky said.

"True." Kian said.

"But, that's okay because I love you guys and nothing's going to change that." I smiled. I looked over at rick and he smiled and winked at me."

They finished their food and we left at about 10:30. We were walking to when Ricky said that he wanted to take the "scenic" root. Ricky took my keys and I go in the passenger seat. I smiled and we did.

We were about his 10 minutes into our trip when I took out my phone and text Trevor:

Me: "My life will go one, but you will be the only guy for me."

I smiled and hit send, then put my hand out the window. I took out my camera and vlogged for about and then ended the vlog for the day.

About a couple hours later it was just about one a.m. we were just getting back to the O2L house. "Wanna come in?" Ricky asked me. " "Nah, I don't want to run into you-know-who" I said. I hugged them good night and went home.

  

What was my most horrible day, still had some laughs in it.