It's our third therapy session this month and my tears are continuing to drown my clothing everyday. Alex and I are really trying our hardest to make things work and the both of us are putting in countless amounts of effort. He hasn't been sleeping at my house for the past week now and fans are starting to notice already. I really do love them tons and more but sometimes I wish they wouldn't look through every inch of the vlogs to try and find some drama to start.
Mia texted me to say she'll be coming over to take me shopping, she thinks it will take my mind off things - even if it's just for a few hours. We predictably went into Urban and decided to try on more than a couple of items. I bought a bunch of crop tops and a really adorable skirt that I'll probably only wear once for a single Instagram photo and then throw it out - A shame really!
"Lauren, I swear things are just rough now. They'll clear up real soon and you and Alex will be throwing stuffies at each other in no time." Mia said while we ate our frozen yogurts.
"I know M but what if that doesn't happen? I still love him more than the world. But we just want different things, and our schedules are constantly clashing preventing our own personal and bonding time with each other. And also I cannot imagine what fans are going to say and...and...do.." I reply trying to hold back my tears. I bite my bottom lip as I sway my spoon through the yogurt. Mia looks at me deeply with her kind eyes and I blink a whole lot to prevent the tears from falling down my heated cheeks. She really has been here through it all. She volunteered to stay over tonight and cancel her date, but I genuinely refused and told her she HAD to go for her date, we picked out an outfit for her and then she kissed my cheek quickly as she jumped into the car with her perfect boyfriend. I instantly thought of when the last time was that I did that with Alex, which only made my eyes water up more and more. I closed the door heavily and pressed my back against it. I stared at the ceiling for a while before making my way up the stairs to my bedroom, I grabbed my phone and dialed Alex.
"Hi Love." I said as he answered, almost instantly
"Hi Nugget." he said gently
"Where are you?"
"Home with Guppy, Aaron is out with Roni, they had some things to do. I really think they're starting to hit it off really well."
"I'm so happy for them. Well...Moose is really bored and lonely." I lied, "Maybe you could bring Gupps over and the two of them could play and the two of us can chill and watch some Bachelor?"
"Ha, I bet my baby Moosie is missing me, that's why he's so lonely and sad. Sounds good I'll bring the Gupp Man over, K?"
"K, babe! Love you."
"Love you too."
Unlike most couples, even though we were going through this rough patch we were still able to be real with each other. I really did mean every word I uttered in that call, I still did love him more than anything.
"Hi Gupps!!" I excitedly said as Guppy and Alex walk through the door. I let them both in and just as I closed the door behind them, I felt warm arms wrap around my waist and I felt myself being pulled closer to his body. Alex kissed the tip of my ear and whispered to me that he was going to make us dinner. I smiled at that and went over to the kitchen to see him grabbing out foods from all around the kitchen to make us the promised dinner. I decided to help him and we soon finished making the most delicious - looking steak platters. We changed into some Moose Onesies and chilled on the couch and decided to watch some Netflix instead of Bachelor.
Next Morning
"Morning Angel." Alex says walking into the kitchen and grabbing a jug of milk from the fridge. I didn't reply knowing that he'd pick up from my voice that I had been crying.
"Love?" He repeats assuming I just didn't hear him.
I suck up my tears and manage to clear the lump in my throat, "Yes, hun? Sorry. Just busy with breakfast for us I said biting my top lip in hopes to keep the tears from escaping my tears.
"Hey! Laur! You okay?" He says as he walks closer to me and pulling me into a tight hug the second he realizes I had been crying. I put my arms tightly around his neck and watch my tears fill the top of his hoodie. I can't stop the crying, so I stop trying and continue to sob upon his shoulder for about 7min before he manages to calm me down slightly and seats me on the couch before throwing a blanket over our touching knees. The waterfall starts again and Alex says nothing he just places my head on his chest and gently rubs my arms with such care. We sit there sobbing together and we eventually talk - a lot - until eventually we head upstairs and lie back down on my bed. We fall asleep for more than a few hours but we are awoken by the ringing of Alex's alarm indicating that we needed to get up and done for our next therapy session which I had completely forgot about. Alex's eyes began to fill again with tears as he turned the alarm off and turned to look at me with a genuine smile while the tears rolled down his face really fast. I quickly picked up the reason for his sadness and cried with him before we both wiped our tears away and began getting done. I showered and put on as little make-up as I could because I knew it would only wash away at the therapy session. I threw on some sweats and a cropped hoodie. I pulled my hair up into a high ponytail as Alex slipped on his shoes and grabbed his car keys. He kissed my forehead in his hands and then went downstairs to get some snacks ready for the road, since seen we hadn't eaten breakfast. He really was so thoughtful.
Arriving at the reception desk to sign ourselves out after finishing our therapy session.
"Lauren? Alex?" Our therapist, Naideen called to us from across the empty waiting room.
"Yes?" I turned around smiling.
"Look I know this decision probably wasn't one you were expecting after therapy but at least you know you've tried and this is the best and healthiest relationship for the both of you." She smiled, as though she didn't just indirectly tell us that we need to break up.
"Thanks!" I replied turning around saying slightly sharper than I intended to.
The whole car ride home Alex and I don't speak once. I swallow hard before breaking the silence,
"Alex! I don't want things to end...not ever. But maybe Naideen is right. Maybe we just need a break?"
"Lauren. Me neither. But you and I both know that more than 90% of couples who say they're taking a 'break' don't end up being togther again." He says, and I hear a lump forming in his throat.
"You right love." I say not trying to hold back the tears, "But I don't know what to say."
"Nugget! Don't cry. We will get through this. I promise."
2 Weeks Later
We set up the camera and I wipe away the tears that began to form on my eyelashes. I slip a hoodie over my sports bra and shorts and jump onto the half couch in the corner of my half unpacked room. I tear up as I look at the few boxes lying on the bedroom floor as Alex walks in and we start the video.
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I turn the camera off without an outro or anything and turn ot Alex who stares at me with lost hope in his eyes as he pulls me into a hug and my tears mess up his hoodie.
THE END!
Authors Note
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So I know I have been gone for more than a century but I deicided to make a return! I have been so slumped with work, school and school. I have had no time!!
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