My life is a living nightmare I put on a mask to make everything seem okay but in reality I'm broken destroyed to the point of suicide I want to wake up yesterday when I got home at 6:00 pm I got a call saying my friend of 12 years killed himself I didn't know what to think he was living with me and then we get a call from the place he went to with my step brother that he went into his room and found him with a cut on his neck the note he had said tell Joshua I will all ways be there for him not in this life but in another now I blame myself for his death his death was my failure I didn't see the signs of him now I hate myself so much
