Okay well i am having a very hard time at home lately and i dont know what to do. My parents arent in a good place right now, having the police at my house at 10:30 at night almost every night, them screaming and yelling at each other in front of me, my brother, and sister and that isnt very good. I have been crying and thinking for weeks almost every single night and im tired of crying. It hasnt been very good and i also think they are splitting up. My brother , sister and I wre almost taken away and put into foster homes because the cops have been involed alot before also. That hasnt been very good at all and this has been going on for days. I have als been going through another thing which involves a guy. Hes an older guy which sucks but i think i may be in love with him. Im not sure what to do because we had a serious relationship but my parents found out and werent to happy about it. My so called "friend" told my mom everything the second she found out which hurts because my other friends knew how happy i was with him. He was all ive ever wanted, he was very romantic and so sweet, i miss it. Anyways she told because she though he was going to hurt me which i knew he wasnt because he respected my choices of how i didnt want to have sex yet or how i didnt want to smoke weed or pot or anything like that. He asked me once and i told him no and he never asked me again and he never tried to touch me or anything like that and thats how i knew he wasnt ging to do anything, but she still didnt trust me enough to take responsiblity of my own life or let me tell my parents what was going on. I went to his house and it was very fun. We kissed, played video games, had a tickle fight, cuddled etc... and it was amazing, but she ruined it all for me. That also i have cried evey single night since then knowing he might be going to jail for 2 years because of me i feel guilty already. Im 13 and i have a very tough life yes i know its not the worst but for me its pretty bad because i have never been in a situation like this before. So thats my life right now and i hope it all gets better, as soon as possible. i doing my best to try and stay hppy :)
