Losing to Myself

Different kind of monster

First look I gave you I knew you weren't yourself

But the monster who made his home inside of your bones

Sucking the marrow and munching your flesh

Being another face of your soul

The face that tried to kill me a long time ago

When I first met you, I knew you weren't

Yourself

But the fears which made you the man I fell in love with

Breaking my heart and licking the blood from my chest

Being another kind of monster

You should be named from a storm

Cause you're a hurricane and so do I now

That you left me tired and angry, ready to break all the pieces

That are still making our love standing away.

Ready to return to the dust I once belong to

And to let you be destroyed by my way

Or may I be your salvation once more

One more time the shoulder you can lay down on

I'll forever be the heart you can rely on

I'm not sure of my strength anymore, I fell on my knees this time

Since you became the one who love me enough to kill me

I could have been my own desolation but here you are

You're too good at this, please bite me cause the pain is a whole new kind of affliction

I like it, the way your ocean eyes are breaking me from the inside

From the part of my soul that still want you more than anything

From that part that you once eat and damn you regret it

But your mistakes are proving that I am right

I must leave and you are the monster you pretend you were

You grew up in my mind and you became my fantasy

I still love you and I see you when I close my eyes

I see your damn smile each time I look at the mirror

Cause you became a whole part of myself

I see your damn flames in every drop of happiness

Cause you became a whole part of my joy

I still need you and I want to hold on

I remember too much that first night in your arms

When we were the sparkle of the edge of agony

First look I gave you I knew you were the one to myself

But your part of devil is just to big now and I'm blowing up under the pressure

Being another prey, you devour

So yeah, I still need you, but I must go on

Cause you're a hurricane and I'm sailing underwater.