Losing to Myself

Safest place

The safest place for me is myself

I got to lock me in my head

But my head ain't no clue

I'm just a different version of myself

I'm trying to kill something in my health

Surviving is just an option when you became your true you

I'm not afraid of losing me

I know I can morph and bring myself to life

I multiply, I'll build a me

I'll became the one you wanted me

But in the inside, I can't lie

I'll be a better version of myself

I'll be who the fuck you want me to

But in the end i'm not afraid

Cause my ennemy is in my head

The house I build with pieces of me

A whole body of disappointment

I'm ready to split now I'm carefree

Losing my bones to go back to my shelt

Losing my mind to keep my boneback safe

I'll make you warm and I'll be around

Dont be afraid I'll get back to town

To the one I build with pieces of me

When my whole life was a tragedy

My mind's gettin deeper and I know its a trap

I can fall down and I won't see the sky

I'll bury myself in a hole of depression

Cause sometimes all you need's on your lap

and you cry and you scream but your body's on top

and the blood and the mud just fuck your things off

no one knows how it is in your head

and no one cares of it anyway

just fight for yourself or you won't get out of it

the line is tight between mad and sick

I cant promise to be there in time

cause the road is long and though and hard

and I lose myself like a billion times

before I find a light in the fucking graveward

and all I was looking for was peace

and so do you so we met at least

we hold our hands and we sing in the night

you smile and damn I felt so complete

but the sun rise and you just disappear

they said I was mad now I say that I'm sick

you were in my head down in the safest place

the house i made when i was just a chick

and i burn my all mind just to see your face

and in the end of it i aint afraid

cause my ennemy still in my head

Locked in my place, the good old same

you just sat here, tears on your face

You told me i was a hurricane

You must admit, you love the pain,

Im sorry that I lose my way

« It hurts a lot », that's what you say

You know i'm doing the worst i can

I destroy you and you overstay

I know i'm messing all that things straight

At least i'm learning how to go away.

You're just standing at my doorway

You look so hot, beginng for me to stay