When The Day Met The Night ~ Ryden

~ Northern Downpour ~

When I first came out to Brendon, he was very accepting and asked me out. Brent, however, was not. After Brendon found out, I told Brent (Spencer already knew) after and he called me a freak, saying hurtful transphobic words to me. It would become everyday that he would bully me, we ended up kicking him out of the band because of it. Our new bassist, Jon, was accepting and he joined Panic! At The Disco.

Growing up trans with an alcoholic abusive father was hard. My father disowned me when he founded out, despite the fact that I named myself after him. I have never told anyone but my band mates that my sex is not the same as my gender identity. Not even Pete Wentz knows.

Everyone has to know at some point, but I couldn't at the time because I was struggling.

The relasionship between Brendon and I was doing well however, I love him I truly do.

That is until one night, we had sex and I forgot the condoms...

~ Ryan