ST4R

Hansuke who...?

You can't run forever

I was found in a deplorable situation. I was running away from where I came from, I broke rules, I did things I shouldn't do, and now they were after me. But I followed old trails to that place... Ren was there waiting for me. He didn't ask me where I came from, or who I was. He just offered help, one thing I wasn't used to was people offering me help, much more from where I came from.

Training was by far the lightest thing I've been through. Despite the pressure and crooked looks of the other trainees, they didn't bother me at all. I was used to jealous glances, more than I would like to. I didn't fit well in the division where Ren had put me, I had only made one friend, maybe that's why Ren put me on ST4R with those kids I barely knew.

I didn't think I would get along with them as well as I have. Hiro is always very kind and approachable with me. Bruce does his best, though he doesn't say much. Dan has that kind of frowning and stressed out all the time, but I like him. I know that underneath all that frown is a kind and warm little boy... Right, maybe not that much, but enough to make me feel good in that environment. Chang... It's Chang, there's nothing to say.

Becoming a trainee also did well to my mental health. Dancing, rapping, acting and singing helped me a lot. I had found myself in something I never imagined myself doing, never in a million years. And to think that I entered this life because I had nowhere else to go. It is true when they say that the good thing about being at the bottom is that you can only go up.

Now here comes the complication I found being in the group. The boys did not have much control of their powers. Hiro and Bruce actually, since they got used to rocking each other, if they don't touch each other for a long time, they could suddenly freeze or catch fire, so making concerts was tricky, Dan learned the choreography and passed it on to the boys with a twist, one of his abilities, to pass knowledge to others with a touch, as well as absorb knowledge in the same way. It was subtle and discreet, but it took all the fun out of being an idol, practicing, discovering new talent, spending quality time with the members... I had learned to value all this even before I had it, and now that I could, I wouldn't miss the chance.

Bruce was still recovering from his physical and psychological wounds, as he was the most affected among the boys who went to Esrever, whatever happened on that mission, traumatized him too much, and Ren offered therapeutic treatment, although he didn't enjoy doing much therapy, it seemed to be helping him gradually. So he missed out on the program I organized for members today, only Dan, Hiro and Changwoo attended.

We were in the training room, stretching, first of all. Dan seemed more excited, although he didn't show much of what he felt all the time, he didn't seem to hate being there. Hiro was confused about stretching, showing that he wasn't used to stretching before dancing, which to me was kind of... Wrong. Changwoo repeated our movements without any difficulty, but didn't seem to be very easy for him either.

- So... - Hiro started - What's the point of all this?

- Spend quality time and get to know you guys better - I smiled - Not to mention that training is good for health.

- We usually train our powers...

- Essential, too, but it's good to strike a balance between training your gifts and idol training here. It must be stressful that you keep controlling your cold all the time, I imagine.

- It is a little bit...

- Relax. What do you like to do? Singing? Dancing?

- I like to sing, but Woo is the main vocalist, so Ren says I don't need to worry that much about my voice, just being beautiful, since I'm the visual.