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goodbye

I moved on
Walking down the country road
Holding his hand
I'm happy
But you still cross my mind
Not just you
But all of you.
Summer days spent with the wind in my hair
Riding bikes down the busy roads
Months spent in chains trying to get over how beautiful you were while trying not to let you catch me staring at you across a classroom
And you. I'm still angry at how you treated me
I deserved better
I got better
I am better
And the last one.
It took me too long to realize you weren't  the one who got away.
You never cared for me.
I dont miss you
I simply miss the simple days
Drama wasn't worth it
Fighting over messages
Rumors and tricks
I lost so many friends
That I realized you were never my friends to begin with
Ice skating in flannel
To the theme song of yuri on ice still brings a smile to my face.
I was never happy
My anxiety and depression never ceased
But I realize that i made the wrong decisions
Always
Never ceasing
I'm a different person
I doubt you'd recognize me
I may have loved you
Each one of you in a different way
I want to say goodbye but i dont know how i would start
But the person you dated
The person you were friends with
The person you fucked
Is dead now
And risen from the ashes I shine
A better person each and every time.
I'm the villian in my own story.
Always letting people in and blaming them for hurting me.
I hope you're all happy
I hope you make peace with your lives
And I hope it isnt too selfish
To think I occasionally  cross your mind.

Goodbye.

I doubt they will read this
But I needed to at least get it out there after 3 years of silence