Reckless

Recklessly Falling In Love With You By Mistake

Recklessly fell into the hole where I knew it was dark
I never knew that trail I was following was a trap
Not trying to fall, but I fell at it easily
If this love is endless, then I don't want to see it ends

Our Love is like a movie theater starring in autumn
Don't know which part of it was worth remembering
All I know was where it all started
From a memoir of our past, that plays

I love how we spend each other's time way back when I was fifteen
We'd go to a fancy restaurant for a date at Royal's palace
Funny how the ketchup spreads on your face
Just so I could almost wipe it away instantly

My lifetime commitment was fulfilled once I laid my eyes on you
You were everything I wanted ever since you came into my life before it went blue
From what you've created, a space that I couldn't identify and comprehend
Flew my youth away, a dazzling firefly that flees

Take a look back at our hearts
We were so young to fall in love
Never knew what love was until you come
Thought it would continue like a folk song that lasts
But, I never knew you'd tear us apart

I knew you all along ever since we were innocent
But, I never knew you came along, just to love, then break me
I never knew you were just playing along since then
I should've known that sign would appear, as you were trying to fool me

6 years wasn't bad for falling in love with you so deeply
I gave you my all, but it cost me nothing but farewell
You broke me twice each time I plead with you to stay
If dumping me was an option, then I'd rather be slipped away

How much recklessness do you have for using me as your guinea pig?
Making me one of your experimental beings in your laboratory
Testing of what it feels like to fall in love in teenage years
I was so young, inexperienced, and innocent back then
How could you do this to me in my entire high school year?

Don't know which part of me should I blame
When you texted me and said, "I think we should break up" that evening
I flooded my room with tears, suffering from the grief you made me
The moment I knew, it was the greatest nightmare I've ever encountered

Don't know which part of me should I blame
For what's the exact reason you broke up with me
That instantly gave me chills and insecurities
After all the things you did, just taking advantage of me

Don't know which part of me should I blame
For not trusting my cousins and friends
About the reckless things you've done to me
I should have dumped you first when I was still a kid

Don't know which part of me should I blame
From the thoughts I have, if it's you or me
I knew I should have not trusted love from the start
I should have denied the call before it could tear me apart

Don't know which part of me should I heal
Would I endure this pain, the ones I received harshly?
From the broken pieces you've made free
Is it too late to pick it up and build it again?

Don't know which part of me should I adjust
I never knew this teenage love would hurt so bad
You were so reckless to toss a coin just for a slipping scenery
You played dumb dice to match up with your rolling devils

For once I could not believe what happened
Surprisingly, it was you who turned me in
Never knew this loving could lead to a betrayal
From the time you let out the cat in a box

How much sanity have you gained from taking advantage of me?
How much greediness did you feel from getting something from me?
How many souls should I provide to make you happy?
How much gracefulness should I give you to treat you better?

Will you know how it feels to be fooled by someone like you?
Who's just treating me like a dog to follow things you wanted to do
Don't you know how painful it was to treat me as a slave, punish me whenever you wish?
Don't you know how much I loved you the way I could never say no to whatever you wished?
It hurts me for whatever the hell you've done to me
It hurts me for a reason that you came into my life, only destroying it
My happiness, my joy, my everything, did you know it disappeared?
I know you never felt the same way as I did, the moment you shattered my heart, aching
But I'm asking you one more time, how could you be so reckless and so as selfish to me in our love affair?