Isaac and Liam

Chapter 9

Zac

It took me a few days to make up my mind. I was choosing Liam. I loved him. Would it be love if I gave up as soon as the going got tough? This is what it meant to be a man.

I had to love him when even when it seemed like all hope was lost. I sent him a text, I hoped that even if anyone saw it, they wouldn't suspect our relationship. He had said he would wait for me. And he did.

Staying works.

We celebrated and for a while we felt normal. We were us again. Without the pressure to come out and acceptance of our new parameters we became blissful again.

The hide and seek of it made our sneaking around hotter. A single look across the classroom would make me blush. A not so accidental brush as he passed my desk had me hot under the collar.

This became our new foreplay and the sex became even hotter. We were very, very happy again. Then again, this is me. My self destructing demon was raging again.

I did a stupid thing. Despite Liam making me swear that I wouldn't tell anyone I did. Well I kinda did. I wrote to our school anonymous message board and asked for advice. I didn't use my normal handle or anything.

I was dying for answers. I knew if I asked anyone in my life, everyone would be totally against our relationship. No surprise, everyone was against our relationship.

People called for lynching Liam for seducing me and brainwashing me. I tried to protest that I had seduced him but the noises got louder and trolls came out in droves. I should have kept my business to myself.

What I didn't foresee was that my school rumour mill was set ablaze with speculation about which of the teachers were involved.

The favourite to win was Mr. Zabowski, our Math teacher, he was a total leech, everyone knew that his eyes lingered way too long at girls busts and asses. But noone was sure if he had actually propositioned anyone.

Mr. Miller, our physics, fine as hell was also a contender only because half the students lusted over him. He was pretty friendly with the students but no one had ever complained about him.

The final person was Mrs. Chance, now she was the definition of a beautiful woman. In her tight, body hugging dresses and big butt. Her bosom always seemed to spill out of everything she wore.

Every guy, every straight guy wanted her. She was definitely a flirt but with teachers only, never students but that didn't stop people speculating.

Small mercies that Liam was new and people really didn't know anything about him, I suppose that's why no one really suspected him. Eventually the rumours did reach the school administration and we had to have a special assembly for it.

I never thought my life could get any worse. Students were now prohibited to visit their teachers alone to discuss any schoolwork. No more closed doors, yada yada the usual rules.

I didn't have the heart to confess that it was because of me that his whole mess had even begun. I should have kept my big mouth shut.

It was as if our flailing relationship was going to die but we held on tight. From seeing each almost daily to seeing each once a week. It made me crave him more. He was within my reach but he wasn't.

He didn't fail to persuade me to be patient, it was going to be worth it in the end. I don't know if he still believed it anymore. Our visits were quick and rushed, very unsatisfactory on all counts. Were we even worth it? This wasn't what I had signed up for.

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Liam walked around class as he handed all the students our quizzes. He was still one of the few teachers who made us write on paper. I almost missed the small sticky note that was attached to my paper.

We hadn't seen each other in a week and I was getting desperate to be with him. We had a long holiday weekend coming up and I was hoping to spend a day with him at least. Didn't he miss me?

'Tonight. 7pm.'

I knew the routine, I immediately chewed it up before anyone got curious. Night couldn't come fast enough for me. At last!!

The moment I was in his place we were all over each other. Eating and talking could come later. Now that was sorted, we lay entangled in each others limbs basking in the glory of our lovemaking. We had both badly needed this.

"Before you complain, I have something for you." He said with a kiss to my forehead. He knew me too well. I was about to launch one of my complaints. He reached over to his bedside table and handed me an envelope.

I tentatively opened it unsure and excited to see what he had for me. It was a weekend getaway voucher for 2 nights and 3 days at a wellness resort 2 towns over.

"I haven't been the best boyfriend in a while, I know and it sounds lame and corny but I know you've been stressed about us and school and I figured a weekend away will help." He helped me flip through the brochure.

"There's horse riding, couple massages, yoga, a health cooking class, candle making for some reason and everything there. The two of us and I think we can safely be free to be ourselves out there. What do you think?"

I grabbed him tighter and felt tears well up. He was totally boyfriend of the year. It was exactly what I needed and wanted without knowing it. It was like the lifeline to be normal again. As long as my parents knew where I was, they weren't too fussy about my plans.

We made plans how to get there and I knew that order was restored. I had an amazing weekend to look forward where Liam and I could just be boyfriends and hold hands and kiss as we pleased. I was going to milk everything I could get out of it. Who knew when another chance like this would arise?

I was getting busier with school and after school activities. Liam had his teaching thing keeping him busy and the tutorial sessions he had. I sometimes resented him working two jobs but I understood that he had student loans to clear and also save for his Masters.

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Bliss, bliss was how I felt during the weekend away. We had done everything on the itinerary. I wasn't a patient potter, my vases didn't look like a vase. My candles were passable. The massages divine, they were so good I fell asleep. The sauna was amazing.

We swam, we did a bit of gardening, we took long walks. This was the Liam I craved. He laughed and smiled more. We held hands in public.

We kissed in public and I enjoyed hugging him all the time. Most importantly, he told everyone who asked, I was his boyfriend. Was it possible to fall deeper in love? Yes. Yes. I believe I did that weekend.

Everything was right in the world but being me, I had a deep sense of foreboding. I'm one of those people who are afraid to be too happy. It was just too much happiness for my poor heart to handle. I didn't dare say anything to Liam about it.

He was happy. Even the creases on his face seemed smoother when he slept. The tension in his shoulders was gone. I loved the way he would just look at me and my heart would race with excitement and then calm down with contentment. I was happy.

I wished we could stay longer. I wanted this life forever but we knew we had to step back into reality. He promised that we would do weekends away like this more often. He had confessed that he wished we could just run away and go far far away together. I would have joined him without thinking about it. I loved him that much.