Derek and Erica: Of Love & Lust

II - "Not" Giving In to Temptation (Erica)

"Erica...!"

I glanced up from my book and over at my husband, whom was looking at me with boredom in his eyes. I giggled and caressed his cheek, "What is it, my love?~" I answered, nuzzling my thumb against his cheek. He let out some sort of noise of acknowledgement.

"I'm bored..."

"Yeah, that seems pretty obvious," I stated, marking where I left off in my book and sat it down on the nightstand, "Why don't you go and do something with the kids? If not that, then I'm sure Darius, Ken and Carl wouldn't mind doing something with you." I suggested. Derek looked at me weirdly before groaning.

"Nah..." he said, "I mean, not be that guy or anything, but... the kids' kinda borin'. And so is them three niggas. 'Sides, I wanna do something wit'chu."

I raised a brow, "And just what makes you think I'm possibly more fun than them?" I asked. Derek smirked and opened his mouth to speak but I cut him off, "And don't you dare even say anything about having sex. You're still in the doghouse, buddy!" Derek just chuckled as he sat up next to me. "C'mon now, baby. Y'know I ain't mean it~" he stated, running his hand along my thigh. A soft coo slipped pass through my lips, wanting to give in to him. "Although, I will all wholeheartedly admit that you're right, I do want you; I'm not going back on my word, mister...!" I hissed, swatting his hand away. He yelped and pulled his hand back, "Ow... but listen, though," he started, leaning in, "You said you wasn't gonna go back on yo' word the FIRST ten times you said that~" he whispered in my ear, causing my body to shudder softly in arousal, "And those SAME ten times, you was all ova' me – takin' my dick, like it was yo' last day on Earth~" he growled lustfully, reaching his arm around my body and grabbed my butt, "So now, is you really tryna' sit here and tell me this ain't gon' be just like them first ten times, where you say you ain't gon' go back on yo' word, but end up goin' back on yo' word anyway?~" he finished, giving my butt a soft squeeze as another soft coo left my throat. I closed my eyes, taking deep breaths, both from trying to quill my anger and my arousal towards my husband. Because he is, indeed, right. Whenever I do say 'I'm not going to go back on my word...' I end up going back on my word. It never fails.

So I do have to ask myself, 'What's going to make this time any different?' Well, it's the reason why I'm upset with him in the first place. Well, not anymore, I'm not. I'm just... putting him on a punishment of sorts, if that makes sense. And it's been working for quite a while. There has been times where I almost gave in to him. But now... I really don't know how much longer I'm going to be able to restrain myself.

Because he's making it harder for me to do so everyday.

I took another deep breath and opened my eyes, giving my husband my most sternest glare before uttering...

"... No."

"Goddammit...!" Derek huffed, crossing his arms and lying back down on the bed. I smiled and went back to reading my book.

Trust me, you have no idea how badly I've been wanting him. Whenever I'm mad at him and deny him any sex, it's like Derek makes it his mission to try and break my will. And it works every. Single. Fucking. Time! It's like some other worldly instinct that I have and have no control of. Or maybe it's just me depriving myself of my own needs. I have to find other ways to satisfy myself just so I can stay true to my word. Lord knows that those flimsy, little dildos doesn't do anything for me. Sure, they're long and thick but... they just don't feel the same.

Guess that's why I always end up going back on my word...

"Uugggh...!" my husband groaned, sounding like a child who just got told they can't have a toy, "I'm so fuckin' horny!" "I don't want to hear it, Derek." I scolded. He groaned again, "Then what the fuck am I supposed to do, then?" he asked. "I don't know; jack off or something." I told him. He looked at me and stared, a neutral expression on his face.