Gloomy River

Chapter (2)

My house is near a lake, whenever i'm sad i set there and get relaxed, whenever i'm depressed i lay my foot above the water, this lake is where i hide from reality, where i hide my sadness and my feelings, it's where i feel that i'm actually alive, i write down my thoughts next to it, it's also a great place to read a book in peace, so i guess this river became a part of me, i call it gloomy river cause it's the perfect spot to hide and think. My family thinks i'm crazy, just because i set alone in front of that lake, whenever my sister sits next to me when i'm there, i get up and go back inside my house, it's not that i dislike being around them, but i'd rather be thinking and writing my thoughts alone.
I admit that i'm a weird person and awkward sometimes, i always get asked the same question all over, are you okay talia? Do you need some help? Are you alright?
I'm sick and tired of people treating me like i have problems with myself, everyone has problems, i'm sure every single people on this earth have problems, but why do they treat my like i'm the only person? not interested to know why, i really don't care about people's opinion, my own opinion that matters me.
My family aren't wealthy, my dad works a cook in a Chinese restaurant, and my mom works a cashier in a clothing store, but they work too hard to provide us food and security.
I'm pretty sure if i was rich i'd be a horrible person, just like every rich people i meet in my school, they're showoff and swanks, not to mention my greatest fear, it's to become what i've always hated to be, i'd rather be disliked for who i am than being loved for who i'm not, for me, i'm settled with myself, i don't need to be liked, i'm not even waiting for love, as long as i like myself and gods giving me several reasons to love life, i'm completely satisfied.