Gloomy River

Chapter 5

As usual, i go to school and come back and continue with my daily routine, eat to sleep, sleep to school, school to home, home to river, river to my rustic small house... as you can see, my life is a circle, whenever i try something new i end up getting back to my boring circle, i'm not complaining, i love my life circle, it's just that i'm tired of it, my life needs refreshing, there's nothing much going on with my life, its boring to be honest, i'v always tried to do something
I've always imagined that theres a mermaid lives in the lake, sometimes, i feel like there's a ghost lives underneath, or just another who girl committed suicide, and her corpse is in the bottom of the lake, who knows, my thoughts might be true, i spent more than half of my time in there, i guess i could count the waves with my eyes if i wanted to.
So i was drifting away with my small rubber-boat on the water, and reached the mountain where i always go to my small rustic lake house, where i can read my books and study in peace, and sometimes i write notes as i said before. so as i was reading a novel laying down my back, i heard something outside, sounds like a footsteps, but not any normal footsteps, i guess there's someone running between the trees in the woods, i always hear footsteps when i'm here, it scares me sometimes, but now i got used to it since i always go there trying to discover it, but when i heard it this time i got a little shiver, so i actually got out and yelled: "Who's there?!". And suddenly, the footsteps stopped! And i got more scared when i heard it stopped, so i said again: "look, there's no need to be afraid, i wont bite, and if you need something, i'll give it to you, just show yourself up". i literally sound like a fool talking to no one, i waited 5 minutes for i response, and i ended up leaving and going back home where i feel a lot safer.
I know i said i would be safer, but i meant it literally, not completely, i mean, shannon always brings her friends over, to be honest, i dislike her friends, they always make fun of me and end up asking my sister: "How come you guys related? She's such a loser, your sister is lifeless .." and many other thing which i wont mention, i also don't love my sister for standing by their side and leaving me for a bunch of losers she calls them "friends", but thats not bothering me cause i'm used to it, sometimes i really don't blame her, i think i'm lifeless honestly, i set in front of a lake, talk to myself, and i write my feelings in a note then i throw them in the water, i believe in many things, but i can't see if that makes me a loser or lifeless, i'm a life that discovers inhuman souls and beauty, i write what my mind tells me to write, i'm an eco-friendly girl, i can't see any lifeless soul inside me.