Meant To Be - Jungkook

Chapter 14

JK POV:

I can barely process what I am seeing.  Pregnant?  How did this happen?  Paige is crying but I can't even bring myself to comfort her.  I am in shock and at a loss for words.  I just stand there staring at nothing.  After a few minutes, she finally says something. She wants to leave and take all the burden upon herself.  

How can I let her do that and let her blame herself?  It takes two and I was a willing participant.  I have a mind of my own but I chose not to use it.  It's as much my fault as it is hers.  We both were irresponsible.  We let our feelings get in the way of our good sense.

I tried to reason with her but when she said that it could ruin my career and the other members, it made me pause.  I can't do that to them.  They have worked so hard to get where we are now and so have I.  That stopped me in my tracks.  I let her go.  I hate myself but I let her go.

Paige POV:

I said what I had to say to convince him.  It hurts so bad but I can't do this to them.  I would rather do this on my own than ruin their careers.  Life is going to be hard but I will deal with it.  I have always been a strong person and I have never been one to give up but right now, I have to give JK up.  I care for him too much, no I love him and I can't burden him with this.  I know I am being crazy right now but what's the alternative?  I don't see one.  

I finish packing and pull out my laptop to check flights.  JK is still just standing there.  I have no idea what he is feeling or thinking but I think it's best to leave things the way they are.  

JK POV:

She really is leaving.  Her stuff is packed and it looks like she is checking for flights out of San Francisco.  I need to talk to the guys.  I can't be here right now.  I send a group text and ask if we can meet in Jimin's room.  I just walk out and leave her there.  I am such an asshole but I need to think.  I need to talk to my hyungs.

I walk down to Jimin's room and knock on the door.  He lets me in.  I think he can tell something is wrong.  I just sit down and wait for the others to arrive.  One by one they all come to Jimin's room.  They all sit down and look at me.  I can barely look them in the face.

"What's going on JK?"  RM asks.  "Why did you ask us here?"

"I need to tell you guys something," I say.  "You aren't going to like it."

"What is it?" Jimin asks.  "Is everything ok with Paige?"

"That is what I wanted to talk to you all about," I say.  

I am so nervous that I can't even get the words out.  I have no idea how they will react.  I can't blame them if they get pissed.  

"Just spit it out," Jin says.  "Is she sick or something?"

"She's not sick," I say.  "Paige is pregnant."

They all look at me with stunned expressions on their faces.  They don't even say anything.  

"I'm sorry," I tell them.  "I was irresponsible and it happened.  I don't expect any of you to forgive me."

"Where is she now?" RM asks.

"She packed her stuff and is looking at flights to leave," I tell him.  "She wants to leave.  She doesn't want to burden me or cause a scandal for any of us."

"Are you just going to let her leave?"  he asks.  

"She wants to," I say.  "She won't listen to me.  She is convinced this will ruin our careers."

"I can't believe this," J-Hope says.  "I honestly don't know what to say.  Part of me knows this won't be good for us if this gets out but a part of me would feel like shit to let Paige deal with this on her own."

"What kind of people are we to preach positivity and let a pregnant woman walk away to take care of a baby on her own?" V says.  

"You can't let her leave," Jimin says.  "We all agreed to let you try this relationship thing.  I don't think any of us expected this to happen but it did and we have to deal with it.  You have to deal with it."

Suga, who has been quiet the whole time finally speaks up.  

"Go get her right now JK.,"  he says.  "Stop her before it's too late.  Bring her here and we can all talk this out.  Leaving her to do this on her own is not an option."

I can't believe he is telling me this.  I thought they would all be much angrier but they just seem like they are still in shock.  

"Go!" Suga yells.  

I get up and run out of the room.  I hope she hasn't left yet.  I run down the hall to my room and open the door.  Thank god.  She is still on her laptop looking for flights.  I go to her and kneel down in front of where she is sitting.

"Paige?"  I say.  "We need to talk."

"What else is left to say?" she asks not even looking at me.  

"I told the other members and they want to talk to both of us," I say.  "They told me not to let you leave."

"Why would they do that?" she asks.  "Don't they know what kind of shit this could cause?"

"They know Paige," I tell her.  "They just want to talk to you.  Please come with me."

She closes her laptop but doesn't get up.  She starts to cry again and this time I put my arms around her waist and hug her.  I can't let her do this alone.  I don't know what I am going to do but I can't let her leave.  I care about her too much.  I think I even love her.  I'm scared and she probably is too.  We can figure this out.  We have to.

She finally hugs me back and I start to cry too.  My emotions are all over the place.  A baby.  I always wanted to be a dad but I wasn't expecting it this soon.  After a few minutes, I let go of her and stand up.  I hold out my hand and she takes it.  

"Please," I say.  "Come with me."

She nods her head and follows me out of the room and down the hall to Jimin's room.  We stand outside the door.  

"Are you ready?"  I ask.

"No.," she says.  "But I owe them an explanation and they deserve some answers."

"Let's do this," I say and knock on the door...