Meant To Be - Jungkook

Chapter 16

Paige POV:

When I woke up the next morning, JK was gone again.  He will have early mornings and late days until the next concerts.  He left me a note again.  

Paige,

Last night was so special.  I wish I could have stayed with you today and just lay in bed all day.  I shouldn't be too late tonight.  I didn't forget what we told each other and I still mean it.  Call you later. I love you.

Love,

JK

Last night was special.  We made love instead of just having sex.  It meant something different.  I told him I loved him and he said it back.  I do love him.  Sometimes, you just know when something is meant to be and I feel like that with JK.  I still don't know how we will manage the baby.  It's a huge risk for JK.  I can't even imagine how that will play out.  

JK POV:

I should be focusing but I can't help think about Paige and the baby.  I think I am still in shock a little bit but I feel happy too.  I love Paige and I will love this baby.  No one has ever caught my attention like Paige has.  I think that's why I let my guard down.  Maybe it was a little irresponsible but when you feel like you found the right person, nothing else matters.  I know this is still new but it feels right.  

The hyungs and I haven't talked to our managers yet but they know about Paige.  RM had to tell them something.  I feel bad but I also want what everyone else wants.  To love and be loved and to be happy.  It sucks that since I am a K-Pop idol, that I can't have both.  The culture demands we remain "available to our fans" but that isn't realistic and if that idea was never started, this wouldn't be an issue.  

Paige POV:

I worked a little bit on a project for work but I am just too distracted to focus on it.  I keep thinking about JK and the other members.  I feel so guilty because this doesn't just affect JK but all of them.  It's all just too much to wrap my head around.  I have been trying to come up with a solution but I just don't see how this doesn't end up badly for them.  They asked me not to leave but it only hurts them if I do.  I don't have any answers and that is so frustrating.

I need to go see a doctor.  I have to get checked out and try to figure out when I would be due.  I will do some research and see if I can see a doctor here.  

I have to tell my family and my work.  I didn't really tell anyone about what I am doing because I wanted to protect the privacy of JK and the others.  I have no choice now but to say something.  I guess I can keep the part about JK being the father of my child a secret for a little while longer but not the pregnancy.  

I did a little research and there is a doctor I can see while I am in San Francisco.  I should see if JK wants to go with me first.  I don't want him to miss it if he wants to be there.  There is still a couple of days until the concerts start so we have some time.  Maybe he can break away for an hour or so?  I'll text him and then make the appointment.

Paige:  Are you busy right now?

JK:  I am always busy, but what's up?

Paige: I need to make an appointment with a doctor and I wanted to know if you wanted to go with me?

JK:  Of course I do.  You know we can arrange for one to come to us right?

Paige:  I don't want to put anyone out.  It sounds like a lot of trouble to go through.

JK:  It's no trouble.  We do it all the time if one of us gets hurt or sick. 

Paige: Ok. If you can arrange it, then that would be great.  It needs to be an obstetrician though.

JK: Got it.  I will have my manager arrange it for tomorrow.

Paige:  Thank you.  I know you are busy, so I will see you later.  Love you.

JK: I love you too!

I didn't think about it, but it would ensure more privacy if a doctor came to us.  It would probably be a nightmare going out and trying to keep it private.  I am starting to understand how difficult it is for the guys.  I guess I am lucky that I am a nobody who can walk around freely.  JK and the other members don't really have much opportunity to do that anymore.  

I don't envy that part of their lives and I could never imagine being in their shoes.  Just being with them on tour opened my eyes a lot to what they deal with on a daily basis.  This life is definitely not easy for them.  Fame or not, they are human beings first.