*Ashley's POV*
Ever scince me and Andy hugged a couple of months ago, that's all I can think about! It felt so warm being in his arms, it felt like it was meant to be but he wouldn't go for someone like me.
One morning I was sat in my small living room, editing Black Veil Brides' new single cover, (Black veil Brides was Andy band) I told Andy that I'm no good with stuff like this but he didn't listen to me so I had to. When I heard my phone go off I looked at it and it said I had a text off Andy so I opened it:
- 1pm, my place and bring the new single cover ;)
from Andy x -
- Okay, I'll see you then but don't be to exited about the cover, it ain't that good ;)
from Ashley x-
I can't help but smile when I talk to him, then I heard my phone go off again, destracting me from my thoughts.
-I'm sure it's amazing ;) see ya soon-
I put my phone down on the table next to me just as Ben walked in. He looked really angry for some reason.
"Hey, what's up Ben?" I said a little scared.
"What's up?! what the fucks up?! I haven't heard anything from you in the past month! Tha's what's fucking up!" he shouted.
He had been drinking again, you could smell it on his breath.
"I've been busy with loads of stuff, if you sent me a text once in a while you would know!"
"You've been with him, haven't you?"
"Who? Andy?"
"Yeah that little faggot! I'm going to kill him one of these days!"
"No you won't!" what the hell was I doing?! I know what was coming now!
"Wgat are you going to do about it?!"
"Ben you've been drinking! You don't know what your saying! Just go home and sleep the drink off!"I say getting up but the next thing I knew was that everything was black.
*5 minutes later*
I heard a sound but didn't know what it was. I opened my eyes, everything seemed so bright. I heard the sound again so I went to get up when I had a shooting pain going through my head and ribs. I pulled myself up the stairs and into the bathroom. I used the sink to help myself up and when I got up I looked in the mirror. All I saw was blood, blood everywhere! Just as I thought that, I had another shooting pain in my ribs, I lifted my top up and my ribs were all bruised. I couldn't take this anymore! I broke down crying. I knew Ben was violent but I didn't think he would do this to me! There was only one thing to do. I went into the bathroom cupboard and found my old blade. I hadn't used this for 3 years but right now it seemed like my only option. I gentally pressed the blade down on my arm, and blood started poring out, I also started crying again. I did this about 20 times on each arm. When I had finished I cleaned myself up and went to check my phone. I had to text messages and 5 missed calls. I looked at the messages which said:
-Hey! where are you it's 1pm! Text back soon!
Hope your okay,
CC-
-Hey is everything okay? it's almost 2pm, just get here as soon as you can
from,
Andy xxx-
I messaged them both back saying:
-Hey,sorry got held up. I'm on my way!
from
Ashley xx-
I made sure I was wearing something with long sleeves so no one could see what I had done, then I made my way to Andys.
*Andy's POV*
Something's not right. Ashley didn't reply straight away to my message.
"Something's not right. Maybe I should go and check on her"
"I'm sure she's fine Andy. Stop worrying!" Jake said.
"Fine" I said, sitting back down.
*An hour and a half later*
Someone knocked the door. I hope it's her, I think to myself. When I open the door I find her standing there, but she seems upset....
"Everything okay?"
"Yeah, everything's fine" She gave me a half hearted smile.
I know she's not okay though, I can tell.
*Ashley's POV*
*2 months later*
It's that time of year again, the time I hate! My birthday! I woke up to 3 text messages:-
-Happy Birthday! Your the bestest friend ever!
Love you so much,
Morgan xxxx-
-Happy Birthday from us guys! Hope you have a good day and hope to see you later :D
From your amazing friends,
CC,Ashley,Jinxx and Jake-
And the final one said:
-Hey, Happy Birthday! I'll pick you up at 4 okay? I hope you have a good day beautiful!
From,
Andy xxx-
Wait?! Did Andy just call me beautiful?! Ignoring that I replied to them all with the same message:-
-Thank You!
From,
Ashley xxx-
I though, before I went out, I would just sit in the garden for a bit because it was a nnice day. I was sat out there for about half an hour when I herad the door open. I thought I was just hearing things like I always do but then I felt someone cover my mouth, then they said
"Happy Birthday Angel, miss me?"
I then figured out who it was and I tried to scream but it was no use.
"No one can hear you" Ben said, slowly moving his hands down my body. I stared to cry but he didn't care, he just carried on.
*30 minutes*
I fell to the floor in my living room after I walked in there and thought about what happened. Ben had just raped me and I can't change that. The first thing I did was go and get my blade again and started going over my old cuts and making newer ones. I then just sat there when I heard the door open.
"Hello? Ashley, You okay?" The voice said
I didn't answer. I then saw that the voice belonged to Andy. I looked up from stearing at his black boots and saw he was in shock. He came running over and just hugged me while I cried into his chest.
"What happened Ashley, you need to tell me!" he said scared, worried and upset. I just cried.
"Who did this to you and why have you cut?! please promise me you won't do it again! please." he hugged me even tighter. We stayed like that for half an hour be for we spoke again.
