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why is it so hard to be happy? (Old)

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(Based around season 4-6'ish)

Lance was laying in bed thinking,

Worthless

7th wheel

Useless

Lazy

Stupid

Selfish

Fag

Can't pick a side

When suddenly the alarms started blaring, "paladins, get to your lions." Allura's voice rang through the castle.

lance rushed to dress in his armour and to his lion, of course he was late. "LANCE," shiro yelled through the com, when lance finally left the castle in the red lion. "Took ya long enough," pidge deadpanned.

Lance placed a big (fake) grin on his face and replied "sorry pidge, beauty takes a while," and just like that everyone groaned.

*·゜ﾟ·*:.。..。.:*·'·'·*:.。. .。.:*·゜ﾟ·*

The battle had ended, and every one was heading back to the castle to go rest. As soon as lance left his hangar, everyone started at him. "Well lance, nice of you to finally join us." Allura noted.

Lance just lifted his hands, formed some finger guns, and makes the biggest most believable smile he could muster, "sorry princess." Allura just scoffs and continues on with the conversation, "as I was saying, pidge could you and hunk please help upgrade the escape pods?" Pidge perked up, they have always enjoyed tinkering with the altean technology. "Sure thing princess," pidge says enthusiastically, hunk just nods. "As for everyone else, good work today, you all deserve a well needed rest" coran chimed in "minus lance" pidge mumbles under their breath.

*·゜ﾟ·*:.。..。.:*·'·'·*:.。. .。.:*·゜ﾟ·*

Lance was lying in his bead, tossing and turning trying to fall asleep, but the thoughts in his head didn't have sleep in lances schedule.

Hello there my useless paladin, it's kind of ironic. Your mother, claimed you would be the one to make people happy, and smile. Yet you can't even do that properly yourself. Ironic right?

Stop it lance thought, you're wrong

Oh but I'm afraid you're wrong, you can't even smile right, you are so useless.

Why don't we go back to our old habits, they make you feel better. They make the pain go away, and if you reach a certain point, maybe I'll go away too.

With that, lance pulled himself from his bed, rolled up his sleeve, revealing faded scars from years of pain and sorrow.

It's been a while, two years was it? Well what do you say we try to beat your record, what was it again? 27? No maybe it was 37? Yeah 37, what do you say we try 38 tonight?

Lance just silently agreed, searching for his razor or a knife or something. But when he couldn't find anything, he rolled his sleeves back up. And left his room, in search of a sharp object.(which was not hard to find, considering they have a kitchen, and a training room filled with knives and guns.) the only problem was, hunk was up baking, and Keith (whom was visiting voltron for the day, he would leave early in the morning) was most likely training.