langst oneshots

Caged yet free

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"Allura, did you have any siblings?"

"Yes. I had a sister, I loved her dearly. But she was always acting strangely."

"How so?"

"She never enjoyed shopping with me, always acted rebellious, and was looking at other men at a very young age."

Lance couldn't stand to hear the paladins talk to Allura about her family. He had known for some time that he and Allura were related, but he never told anyone.

The thing is, lance is trans. He was born into the wrong body, too feminine, He hated it. His sister, Allura never listened to him, no matter how many times he said it. She never understood.

Lance left the room, he couldn't deal with this. He ran to his room once he was out of sight from the paladins, His face cascaded in tears. He removed his binder and let his lateen form take over.

Lance stared at himself in the mirror, thinking to himself. Why was I born this way?

His white hair long and wavy, caramel skin now marked with glowing pink lines across his body. And the two arrow head shaped marks on his cheeks.

He felt trapped, his breathing quickened. His vision blurred as he changed back to his human form. He curled up into a ball on his bathroom floor, back against the cabinets.

He couldn't breathe, he couldn't hear anything through the pounding in his skull.

Something touched his chest and he flinched, looking up to see who it was. He could see the blurry form of hunk and let the fear fade. His panic attack receded to a faint buzzing in the back of his skull and he looked up at his best friend.

Hunk knew lance was trans, he was the only one.

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"Everyone, i have an announcement" pidge stated, taking a deep breath. "Im non binary and I go by they/them pronouns." they said quickly.

Everyone else in the room had smiled and told them they supported them.

Lance had no idea what to say, he left the room.

Lance had decided to go to the observatory, to stare at the stars. It wasnt until keith had a asked him why he was crying that he notices the tears falling from his eyes.

"Its nothing keith, dont worry about it"

Lance walked back to his room, wiping away the tears in his eyes. Once the door shut he was hit with a memory.

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"Lilani, why wont you go shopping with me?" a beautiful young lady with pink markings on her cheeks, an altean tiara placed gently upon her head.

"Because i dont want to wear those dresses you always buy for me." he said. "Theyre too girly." allura stared at him bewildered "lilani, you are a girl. Not a boy. Were going shopping." lances face had become saddened as he obediantly followed his older sister.

While at the space mall, lance took to staring at all the outfits he could have been wearing if only he had been born a boy. And all the men who were weraring them. He wished so badly to be those men, to wear such masculin clothing.