A/N I met her when I was 14. Fell in love with her at 16. And I've been an addict ever since
Almost a year. Almost a year since I decided to stop loving you. You can't control who you fall for. You can't control the connections that you have with people because once it's. there, it's there. I felt it with you the moment I laid eyes on you and I still have that feeling after all this time. I tried to push down my intense feelings for you but nothing can rid them. They're so strong it's almost natural. Like we're two pieces of a puzzle specifically made for each other. I don't want it to be true but it is. You bring out the best in me and are my number one cheerleader and I only want the same for you. I don't think I'll ever stop loving you even though there's no way in hell that you feel the same about me as I feel about you. I'm not mad at you for not being in love with me as I am with you. Because I rather have you as a friend then not at all.
I hope one day I'll find someone that always knows how to calm me down. Who's voice is my favorite song. Who's eye's are my favorite view. Who's face is my favorite picture. Who's body is my favorite sculpture. Who's mind is my favorite galaxy. Who's smile is my favorite light. Who's laugh is my favorite drug. Who is my very first and very last thought of each and every day. Who is in every love song I listen to. Who I wish I am holding every night instead of my pillow. Who I adore and love more then I thought was humanly possible. I hope one day I'll find someone that feels all these things for me as I have for you.
They say everything happens for a reason. I don't why we met and why we are in each other's lives but I know that we are stuck with each other for a long time. I think I'm a full for loving you. For fantasizing of future with you. Us with kids and a wedding and living in a two story house with a son and some dogs and then maybe a daughter and a backyard with a pool but also that's not too far from the beach because I know how much you love the beach. I'm delusional for thinking this. For wanting this. I'm so in love you that I'm pretty sure it's the thing that will kill me.
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Therapy
Non-FictionMy names Renee. I write whenever there's shit that's on my mind and don't know who to talk to. I do this instead of going to therapy. And I guess in a way this is my therapy and the notes app is my therapist. Enjoy
