Only If You Really Knew Me...

Im doing a new book, wanting to start over. This book is dedicated to Evonie her Wattpad name is DaMindlessTwinz because she inspires and encourage me to write. Hope you guys enjoy my fresh start.. Thank You ! (:

Im Deajah, 17 years old. Just yesterday, found out I'm pregnant with my Ex Tyreem who 25 years old  baby. Crazy how he just got caught with 3 pounds of weed in the back of his car, once I was going to tell him I got his baby. We broke up 3 months ago and tried to work things out but shit wasnt working. Tyreem  had the money, the good sexing , and look good, but what Tyreem fucked on was being faithful. He helped my mom when she needed a little cash and help my little brother get all the stuff he need. I thought Tyreem was the one for me and only for me but my mind fucked me over and made me think I was in love, but instead I was just another bitch riding Tyreem's dick getting that money. Tyreem may have atleast 3 years behind bars because maybe if he stop smoking weed and acting stupid with his friends then maybe he wouldn't be in this mess, but hey ... that's him he a grown ass man. Wonder how me and this baby gon make it ....

This morning woke up sick to my stomach. I could barely get off this bed. I called over my Bestie Stansie, she brought over her momma's soup, that shit was spicey as fuck. I had to tell her that I know I'm pregnant with Tyreem's baby. Stansie hated Tyreem and knew he was one of  those bad ass boys that I shouldn't be fucking with, she was right. Lord only knows what she is going to say when I tell her that I'm pregnant. I'm  just laying in this bed thinking about how to tell her I'm pregnant with Tyreem's baby, as she sit on the edge of bed just running her mouth on some new guy she met.

"Girl are you even listening to me? Got me talking to  my self... ", Stasie says as she rolls her eyes getting off the edge of the bed."Stasie I was listening to you ... ", I said softly."What did I say then..? Huh .. Exactly what I thought!", She was getting frustrated."Relax you can tell me later bout your new man, but right now I gotta tell you somethin' so sit back down.",Stasie sat back down on the edge of the bed looking worried. 

"What girl... You getting me scared. Wait, Is this bout Tyreem..?"

"Kinda, just listen."

"Lorddddd!! Not that boy again... " 

"Stasie this mad(so) serious... Just listen to me !", I was getting upset because these are one of the times I really want her to listen to me."Me and Tyreem got it in last week, I thought shit was working out but I was wrong....So the next day I told him we was done, for good. Sooo, Yesterday I went to the store and bought some pregnancy test, and----", Stasie interrupted me and yelled,"Girl nooo!! Dont tell me ... you ... you ... PREGNANT? Out of all people Tyreem! Really? He just got arrested you know what you gotten yourself into...". I knew Stasie was angry and sad, I knew I was going to cry. My eyes started to get all red and watery. I put my two hands infront of my face and let the tears drop from my eyes. Stasie walked slowly to me and hugged me, my head pressed to her chest. I mumbled , my voice cracking,'' You was right... you was right ... I gotta tell my mom." Stasie still hugging me, crying then whispered," It's going to be okay..."

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After we was done crying, Stasie had to go. Stasie is 18, she is like another mom to me. When I'm doing something wrong or stupid she not gon hold back to what she gotta say. She said she might have time come back over and talk about the new news she found out. I got off the bed to get more food , I have the craving for icecream. Dang, This what it feel like to be pregnant...Tomorrow I got to go the hospital to make 100% sure I'm pregnant before I tell my mom. Mom, soon someone will call me  mom, mommy, or momma. Sigghh, My mom will be grandma ... Crazy how shit happens so fast  like all I remember is me and Tyreem riding around in his red Mustang getting all these hoes jealous. Tyreem made me feel like I was baddest bitch and no one could beat me. I had all Gucci, Louie, Coach, Fendi, Chanelle, and more. Name it all I had them. Ugh , I'm hungry let me get up and   go to the store. Before I get ready to go to the store let me see if I have icecream before I do a whole mission when I already have icecream. I opened the fridge and it was scarce(empty), I shaked my head and mumbled, Damn. I jumped into the shower and let the water hit my back as I think about everything. As I was finish getting myself all cleaned up i got into a regular outfit (I'll post the outfit in the comment Below as Outfit#1). I looked into my wall mirror and took a deep look at myself holding my stomache. I turned to the side holding my stomach, nothing yet I see...I grabbed the keys to my car, my car is a Corvette C7, its gray. I locked the door to my house that Tyreem bought me. It was a 2 story house with 4 bedrooms, 5 bathrooms, basement, and a pool. I gott in my car and drived to the store. I opened the door to the store and it made that bell sound and I heard someone from the back say in a low manner way,"Good afternoon..". I went to grab a trolly and went to the Breakfast section and picked up some pancakes, Frosted Flakes cereal, poptarts, and more stuff. I was walking to the dairy section and see a little boy pulling on his mom's dress yelling," Mommy! Mommy! Mommy! I want this , and this , and this." He pointed at everything he wanted, how cute. His mom said semi-yelling at him," You can't have everything you want I don't have enough money... Okay ? I told you before we came here not to ask for anything. Now let's go!" I seen him about to cry but once he saw me he blinked hard and followed his mom. I can tell he was at least 5. I thought, Am I going to be like that with my son or daughter...? Am I going to be a good mom to me and Tyreem's baby... I hope I don't struggle with bills while Tyreem in jail. Will my baby even get to know his/her's father?

I thought about it. Then snapped myself back to earth until I hear someone yell,"Daaaeeejjjaaahhh !! Giiirrrrlll where have you been !?" Just by the sound of that voice I knew that was my baby girl, Tiara.  I turned around and she jumped to hug me. Tiara is 17, same age as me but she act like a baby and looks like one. Tiara is 5'4 and petite but she just so cute you just wouldn't want to hurt her feelings, ever. I hugged her back and said," Girl , What you mean where I been? Where the fuck you been?". She smiled saying," With a booyyyy... I like him alot and I know, for a FACT he likes me." I  smiled looking shock," You got a man? You got to show me him!" She jumped up and down and say," Girl he here with me right now!!". She grabbed my hand and dragged me down the aisles and took me to the register. She said," Babe .. This is Deajah!". He turned around and said," Nice to meet you----". We both had a smile on our face until it felt like someone smacked the smile off our face once we were face to face. It was my Ex Reggy, who cheated on me, broke my heart, put me down before I met Tyreem. I hated that nigga he made my life  living hell, nothing but made my days worse. We justed acted we didn't know eachother but I knew deep down I was ready to but that nigga on blast(expose). 

"Umm... Nice to meet you Daejah..", He put out his hand to shake mines.

"Mhmm... Sorry I don't shake hands but nicee to meet you too.", I did a sarcastic smile.

"Ok... anyways baby, Tiara we got to go, now..", He said grabbing her arm. I grabbed Tiara arm and say," What if she don't want to go..?".He looked at me with his deep brown eyes and let go off Tiara and say,"I'll meet you in the car...". She seemed so confused but nodded her head while he kissed her forehead. I shake my head, I want to tell her but at the same time I don't want to hurt her. I told her bout the Tyreem and me stuff and she so shocked, it looked like she wanted to cry but she didn't. She just said," Here's my number text me , I got to go.". She gave me a card with her number I put the card in the back of my pocket. I went back to grocery shopping and bought me 300 dollars worth of food. When I got home I put the stuff away the food. Then got in the shower get ready to eat icecream and watch whatever movie is on. I put on my cute little pajamas looking like I was having a sleep over. I went to go get the icecream , I ate icecream while watching a movie and fell asleep on the couch. Talk about a long day ... 

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