teeth

kaede

never in her life, did she imagine she would fall for anyone. love had been locked up inside her heart for as long as she could remember, reserved for someone she never thought she would find.

she remembered her childhood - scarred with memories of her mother.

"mommy?"

"not now kaede," her muffled voice came from a corner of the room.

in the darkness, she could hear her sobs. her mother had a pillow pressed to her face, but it didn't do much to quiet the sounds of her crying. a bottle of pills lay on the floor next to her. there were only 2 left inside.

"mom are you okay?"

"I SAID GO AWAY!"

"but mom-"

"GET OUT! GET OUT YOU-" kaede ran away before she could hear the rest of the things she knew she would say. she had heard them all too many times before. she blamed herself for everything her mother went through. "if only I hadn't been born. maybe mommy and daddy would still be together, maybe she would be happy. if I didn't exist..."

she would only remember falling asleep in her room, waking up to find her mother's body curled up in the same corner, cold.

she remembers tears falling from her face, screaming, her heart hammering against her small rib cage. "IT'S ALL MY FAULT! IT'S ALL MY FAULT!" kaede held on tightly to her mother's hand. "you didn't have to die mommy."

an ambulance soon came, and she kissed her mother's cold cheek for the last time. she was sent to an orphanage, and she grew up being tormented by all the other girls there. loneliness took over her life. she had so much reason to hate, and yet,

she didn't.