It's a silent pain no longer felt
I made my mind up when I was 12
I never knew how deep in me the damage dwelled
I'm something in need of saving
Helpless, in need of taming
My emotions constantly rearranging
Extra effort put in to show submission
More work needed to render recognition
To see beauty so plain in others' sight
To me it appears as a deceptive midnight
How could I receive joy from this
When pain is all i know?
How can I open up
When I'm so used to being closed?
Damage undone impossible it seems
This chaos I must live with during seasons my insides scream
Bear with me
For I am shattered atoms locked up in a gem
The strongest most beautiful kind
But afraid to show love
When my fears reappear from hiding
It's a war within me I won't be denying
