Wrapped | P. JM

- Thirty Four

"I never wanna come back to that house Lia!" My voice boomed in Lia's hotel room, she looked at me while holding her whine glass and I laid on her bed, glaring at the ceiling.

"Look why don't you tell me what happened? How would I know what is your problem? Did you two have a huge fight?" She asked and I sit up and stare at her.

I remember what happened last night, I way I desperately kissed him, The way I fucking moan for him, I begged him to do me but what? He refused and I hate myself for acting like that, he must think I'm pathetic, I wanted to cry, he didn't even slept in our shared room and I found out from Lana that Jimin slept in one of the guest rooms. Fuck it all.

"I tried to get him in bed last night Li" I whispered and Lia coughed and looked at me, I stare at her and sighed and looked embarrassedly on my lap.

"You what?" She asked and I rolled my eyes and groan eternally.

"Please! I'm drunk Li, we fucking made out okay? I thought he wanted it too" I defended myself and Lia walked towards me and grabbed my hand.

"You're an idiot Y/N" she said and I nodded and glare at her.

"I know that okay? Don't fucking rub it on my face, Let me stay here, I can't face him" I said and she gasped.

"Oh my god! You didn't even inform him that you're leaving?" She asked and I nodded.

When I wake up this morning, Lana said he already left to go to the factory so I took the opportunity to leave and go here. I didn't even text him and I just told Lana and Mirae that I'm going somewhere they asked for specific place but I didn't tell. Lady Jung wasn't in the house when I left and I'm thankful because if she does, she will force me to tell her.

"Why would I? I don't even want to see him besides he already left when I wake up and he didn't even sleep in our room" I said and he looked at me with wide eyes.

"For real?" She asked and I nodded, I laid in her bed and hugged her pillow. I even left the house wearing a shirt and Pyjamas.

I stared at the ceiling again, I feel so fucking ashamed of myself, I feel so pathetic.

"Are you sure you're not going home?" Lia asked and I tiredly looked at Lia, I'm tired, I didn't even get a decent sleep, I cried last night so fucking bad. I wanted to go back to Australia and never ever come back again. I have started to regret my decision, about all of this. Mom, Dad and Seunghyun please at least tell me what to do.

I simply shake my head at Lia and she sighed and wiped the tears off my cheeks.

"Baby, I think you should go an talk to Jimin, this won't solve anything, I'm sure Jimin will be worried to know you left" She said and I cried even harder.

"I know you're embarrassed Y/N, Jimin is stupid to ask you for marriage and you're stupid for agreeing, but you know what I think? Jimin still loves you" Lia whispered and I looked at her and shake my head

Loves me? She must the way he refused and glared at me, the way he slammed the door and leave me alone.

"You think? That's impossible Li, so fucking impossible" I mumbled and she smiled.

"Jimin wouldn't ask you to marry him if it's nothing Y/N open your eyes" She said and I threw the pillow on her face. She scooted away and I grabbed my phone from my bag and It's already 4 pm and I left the house at 11 am, I came here an hour ago, I roam around and clear my mind before coming here to rant to Lia, it didn't help at all.

It just remind me how much I love Jimin years ago and I'm not gonna lie to myself anymore, I still love him and I always do, nothing changed. I still love him, probably why I don't want to go and start a new relationship with another person, I'm already 27, my heart beats for Jimin when I was 18 and it was still him but things changed now, we can't be. I always knew that he deserves someone better than me.