My Alpha's Story~[Namgi]

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Namjoons POV

There's a method to my madness, the reason Im such a dick to Min Yoongi. At first when I was little I actually had a small crush on Yoongi, but when I found out he was an Alpha I freaked out! I didnt know what to do, I was always supposed to find an Omega, settle down. But when I found that piece of information out I couldnt take it anymore. Thats why I started bullying him On my 18th birthday I had my first rut, and I learned some very interesting news about our little Alpha.

Flashback~

Im sitting in class, bored out of my mind. I start feeling hot, my pants become tight, I start sweating really bad. Oh my god! I think I'm in rut. I excuse myself to go to the bathroom, I smell this heavenly scent. Raspberry's with cream and fresh vanilla cake. I follow the scent knowing full well Im about to meet my mate. But Im only met with the sight of Min Yoongi, in his full glory, actually smiling, Ive never seen him smile. I smile to myself and feel heat pooling in my lower stomach area.

Flashback end~

My mate is Min Yoongi, I've hated him every fucking day because of it. It kills me on the inside watching him cry, plead for me to stop. But I cant, he ruined my future, he ruined any chance I have at having a family. Ive always liked kids, have always wanted kids, but I obviously cant have kids with an Alpha, a male Alpha might I add.

Im not excited for his birthday, thats the day Im gonna reject him, and painfully, might I add. I know how excited he is to find his mate, after I reject him, the natural bottom of the pair can never find another mate. Which is what I want, I want him to suffer, as I have suffered.

I didnt actually mean what I said about my project. I might make it on how wonderful Yoongi is. Oh how and I kidding! After I reject him I fully expect him to completely ignore me, which is what I want.

Yoongi POV~

Ive cried all night, I started in the shower, then I moved into my bed, now Im laying under 4 different blankets, sobbing uncontrollably because of what? I dont know! As soon as I got back from Namjoons house, I just couldnt stop crying, its like a dam broke or a faucet wont shut off. Ive felt this strong connection with Namjoon even since he turned 18, I dont know why.

'Yoongi sweety? I know we arent on the best terms but Im still your mother, I want to know if your ok." I here a sweet voice ask there my locked door. I slowly remove my blankets and open my locked door, my mother gasp and rashes towards me incasing me in a warm, soft motherly hug. The water works start up again when I start crying heavily into my mother's neck. Yes, Im an alpha, but even alphas need to cry every once in a while. "Whats wrong sweetheart?" My mother whispers in my ear, she rubs my back soothingly, she kisses my forehead every so often.

"You remember when I told you I liked an alpha named Namjoon? Well he bullies me, he beats me up, calls me names, he was the reason I got raped, he told them to do it, he watched the whole time! No matter what I do or say or act he always does the same thing every day." I cry louder in my moms neck, she continues rubbing my back.

"You know how me and your father are both Alphas? He didnt want an alpha mate, he wanted an omega, he bullied me, beat me, anything you could imagine. After I turned 18 he rejected me, but then he finally realised what I meant to him." She whispers against my hair. "Are you telling me Namjoon is my mate?" My voice cracks a little. "That is not what Im saying, but you never know. You say he only bullies you, you have never seen a mate or permanent partner, Its not impossible." She kissed my forehead lovingly and walks out of my room. Not after smiling at me and closing the door.

That was the only time my mother has ever done that, I kinda like it.

I smile slightly towards myself, theres a chance Namjoon could be my mate. I dont know rather to be happy, sad. Will he reject me? I'm the natural submissive, I could never find someone to love me after he does. Would he hate me that much to do that, we would both go through excruciating pain, me a little more than him. But Ive heard stories of some dominant Alphas in an alpha-alpha, commiting suicide because the pain is so bad, thats the only way they can releave it.

Does Namjoon know that, does he know the pain he would go through to? Why am I overthinking this? There's no way Namjoon is my mate, there is no way someone would hurt their mate on purpose without him feeling a sting in his heart, a stab in his gut, his breathing go short. Then again sometimes I see a pained expression on his face...