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3.

We start to get changed to head over to Bens house. We get on our bikes and start to leave, everyone was messing about other than me, i kept thinking of everything that happened in the woods and if i should tell anyone or not. "are you sure your alright zoe" richie asks me, returning back to reality "yeah,why?" i look at him confused "well you are weirdly silent and your about to drive into a lamppost and your not even reacting" i look ahead of me and see i'm heading straight to a lampost, i turn my handlebars and my bike heads straight into richie's bike and we both fall to the ground with the bikes landing on top of us. the others turn to face us at the sound of bikes clashing "zoe you little bitch your gonna pay for this" I shove the bike off me and stand up and kick him in the rib lightly "stop being dramatic you pussy" i scoff. I notice my knee bleeding but i ignore it and get back on my bike and head to the others that are waiting. "you okay?" bev asks me looking at me knee and i wipe the blood off it and nod at her.

"woah woah woah" richie mumbles as he walks into bens room "wow" i say looking round "cool huh?" ben questions "no nothing cool" richie says "there's nothing cool" i add. Richie walks towards a picture and points at it "well this is cool-" he stops to think "wait no it's not". "what's that?" stan asks pointing to something and i look at it confused " oh that? that's the charter for Derry township" he answers and richie scoffs "nerd alert" and i let out a slight giggle. Ben looks at me and then at Richie "actually it's really interesting Derry started as a beaver trapping camp" he says. "still is, am i right boys?" Richie laughs and holds up his hand for a high five and looks at eddie then stan, neither high five him so i do but very lightly so it seems sarcastic.

"Ninety-one people signed the charter that made Derry. But later that winter,
they all disappeared without a trace." Ben says but gets cut off by Eddie
"The entire camp?" he questions but he doesn't answer. "There were rumors of Indians...but no sign of an attack." he says before i blur out what he says, I notice a picture with a bunch of men lining up for something but one person stands out to me, it was a clown the exact same clown that i saw in the words earlier on. I decide to ignore it and force myself to believe i was just paranoid, i snap back to reality and listen to Ben finish off "The only clue was a trail of clothes leading to the well-house." everyone gasps and i just stare at the photo but the clowns face is no longer there "Jesus we can get Derry on unsolved mystery's" Richie says and I elbow him "not the time Rich" i roll my eyes. They all ignore me "let's do it you are brilliant" Eddie says and i raise my hand and shrug to show my judgement. "i don't know" Stan says concerned "maybe he's just trying to make friends stanley" i look at ben then at stan. my attention is quickly taken away from stan when billy says something for the first time in a while "Where was the well house?" he asks "i don't know somewhere in the town i guess" he answers "why?" i add, "nothing" he shakes his head.

I start to head home with billy but he brought bev along and now he had to go "bye billy" i say as he rides into his driveway "bye zoe" he shouts back. Usually I'd be with Eddie as he only lives two blocks away from me but he went to get some pills. Now it's just me and Bev, I feel my chest tighten so I just take deep breaths, " you know you can speak to me right" she says and i look at her in confusion and she sighs "about your you know" she gestures to me "my what" i say looking at my lower body "not you, you idiot, your attacks" and i stare at her and she smiles at me, I immediately feel my breathing slow down and we continue walking. "how'd you know" I ask "I know because i'm not and idiot like the rest of your friends" she slightly laughs "-i mean your not wrong" i giggle, we continue talking and laughing until I get home "this is me" i point to my house "yeah i know" she laughs "oh-yeah-obviously" i stutter. I walk up my driveway and turn back to wave at her before walking through my door.

As soon as i turn around from shutting the door my mum is stood in front of me "was that bev" she asks excitedly "no mom it was quite obviously fucking chewbacca" I shove her out the way "haha real funny young lady watch your language" she shouts at me "okay sorry mum and yes it was bev" i shout back. "Wait till mom hears all about your dear friend bev" Henry smirks "you wouldn't fucking dare" i raise my finger "you know why don't i just tell her now" he says pushing me out his way "no,no henry DONT" i raise my voice "why not? I thought you hated her" he asks "I do but just-just i don't know" i sigh and he walks into the kitchen where my mum is. I had to do something, if he tells my mum about the 'rumours' about bev then my mum will stop me from seeing her and probably all of the losers club. I have to options blackmail him, attack him or kill him. "Henry if you tell her I'll tell her all about that day with Ben" and he raises an eyebrow at me he murmurs something but i couldn't hear him "what's you say" i ask him and he whispers a bit to quiet "still can't hear you" I fold my arm "how'd you know you little shit" he shouts and i can feel my mouth drop and my mum bursts out he kitchen "what did you just call her" she says sternly "I called her a god damn piece of shit, that's all she is nothing more, no wonder her dad killed himself look at her the fucking anxious bitch" he laughs "look at her friends they're all losers and look at her boyfriend he's the biggest loser of them all he can't go two minutes without complaining about some kind of disease, I'm not surprised though have you seen his mother he's probably a druggie with the amount of pills he takes and don't get me started on Beverly Marsh. All I can say is what a slut, I heard she's slept wi thy every guy at in school" he shouts and i feel tears welling up in my eyes. I can tell that everyone is shocked even himself i hold back my tears and clench my fists "now then henry that was a horrible thing to say" she says at him and turns to me "is the thing about Bev true, the druggie thing" she turns to me and i say nothing because I didn't know if it was true or not "you know what your never seeing your friends again unless you tell me the truth right here right now" she stamps her foot and i shrug my shoulders still taken back by Henry's words "right that's it your not seeing them all summer" and i open my mouth to speak but she stops me before i can " and YOU" she shouts at henry "you apologise right now, you have no right to bring up her dad like that and you know full well the reason why he killed himself". This is what upset me the most my mum told everyone but me why my dad killed himself, even Henry. I was only 4 when he killed him self and my life has never been the same, he was my best friend, I remeber when we were watching the never ending story and after we cried over the horse dying for hours and we'd watch it every weekend after until he died. I stare between both of them "he's not my boyfriend" I say and they both look at me "what?" My mum says confused as to who I'm on about "Eddie and how dare you bring him and bev  into this" i turn to Henry and turn into my room and feel tears burn down my cheeks.

I stare at the box in the corner of my room, it had been sat there for years but I'd never had the courage to open it, right now I had nothing to lose for all I know I could die today. She shuffled towards the small box and unties the ribbon. She inhales sharply and slides off the lid and peers inside. A smile spreads across her face as she looks inside it, it was the never ending story vhs and a photo of her and her dad when she was a baby. She took them both out the box and saw a letter, she slowly picked it up and started reading it.

dear zoe,
if you're reading this I just wanted to let you know that I love you and i always will but also if you are reading this right now then it probably means that something happened to me, something that will affect your life massively.
You might be wondering why I did what I did but you'll have to ask mum, she's the leader and we're the followers remember. Anyways, I just wanted to tell you to never stop believing in yourself and just like Falkor says "never give up and good luck will find you" so follow his words and follow mine. You've got potential my love, I don't want you to waste your talent or time, go for what you want and try to reach your dreams.
I don't want your life to have the same fate as mine so just try your best and as long as it's your best then I'll always be proud.
goodbye my love.

I grip the paper tightly and hold it to my chest hugging it and let the tears just rush out.

A/n- this chapter was kinda pointless and I have no idea where I'm going with this story