i cant wait for the day when i can genuinely say i'm okay . and assure people i love that i'm doing well. maybe even tell them i've found someone special who thinks i'm special too. i can't wait until i grow up, and go wherever i want. i can't wait until i spend every day with my friends instead of sitting in my room for days at a time, too exhausted to do anything but sleep. i can't wait until i can get a full night's sleep, with no nightmares; nothing to wake me up by the hour. i can't wait until i can talk to people about everything wrong with me. i can't wait until i can trust people that care about me, if they really do. i want to be known for something. i want to be famous, i want to travel the world, i want to make films and do projects but all i'm doing is sitting here on fucking wattpad telling strangers that i'm depressed. right now i feel that's all i really can do.
i know i'll be okay. i'll be okay eventually. i don't know if i'll ever find that person who thinks i'm special or complete any projects, and i know for a fact i'll never be famous. but i know that one day i'll be okay. even if it's just for a little while i'll be okay. and i know that after that high passes, i'll feel lost again but i'll still remember that it'll come again eventually.
