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pt. 1 - How Everything Happened

It has been months since the last time you saw him. Today is his birthday. You remember last year you celebrated his birthday along with the guys. You made a surprise for him and you still remember how he cried at the present you prepared. Unconsciously a smile formed on your lips before it faded back. Your memory flew right to the day where the fight happened, when everything officially ended. It wasn't his fault but you couldn't help not to be mad at him despite what you saw that day.

-8 Months ago-

"Chris, I'm home." You said like always, busy taking off your shoes you noticed a pair of female shoes that isn't yours. 'who's coming?' you thought as you take off your coat and hang it. "Chris?" you walked straight into your living room to see Chris, your boyfriend, sitting on the couch with someone else. They seemed to be expecting you to come. "YN, hey" he gets up and immediately embraces you, wrapping his arms around you without any word, right in front of a stranger. "hey" you said as you rub your back. Smiling awkwardly at the girl who smiles back at you. "who is this?" you asked Chris before he pulled away. "can we talk somewhere privately first?" he asked without answering your question, pulling your hand. Clueless you stepped your foot following him into your shared bedroom, leaving the girl.

Chris closed the door after you stepped in. He keeps his head down, not saying anything. "Chris, what happened? Who is that?" you asked him, still clueless of what's happening right now. He suddenly started to sob and fall down on his knees, "I'm so sorry" his voice is shaking and he sob even harder. You immediately kneel down and wrap your arms around him, letting him cry on your shoulder with him gripping on the bottom of your shirt. "what happened, hm?" you asked him as he slowly calming down. Slowly you lift his chin up and wipe the tears off his cheek softly. "I'm sorry" he said half whispering in between his sniffles, "I'm really sorry, I love you so much, please believe me" he repeat, choking on his own breath as he talks.

"Chris, I love you too but I'm still clueless. Would you mind explaining?"Chris took a deep breath, trying to avoid your eyes as he let out everything he thought you should know. Apparently his father's company lost everything and is on the edge of breaking down. He called Chris this morning and told him that the only way to save the company is to marry Chris with his friend's daughter, Mina, which is the girl who is sitting on your living room right now. You immediately feel like the world around you is falling down. "we can save it without having you to marry her, this is a real life and not a drama scene." is the only sentence coming out your mouth. "father said he needs coverage money and Mina's father is the only friend willing to lend out his money. It's a very huge amount, YN" he sighs, his voice is about to break down again.

"Chris, are you done?" you suddenly heard a voice from outside which is clearly 'her' voice. With that Chris wiped his own tears and get up, "no, where are you going?" you followed him and grips onto his arm. "I have to leave to Japan tonight," he said lowly. "what? No, you're not going anywhere!" you raised your voice to him. "Chris?" a knock on your door is enough to make your blood boil up. You rushed out from your room and pushed Mina away, "You're not taking Chris anywhere!" you shout at her. "YN!" to your surprised Chris ran to Mina and hold her instead so she won't fall back. You stared at him in disbelief and scoff at him as he gave you a pleaded look as if he begged you not to make it even harder for him. You glanced at Mina who is right now staring at you in disgust.

"I want you out of my house" you said to her as you clenched your fist before you move your eyes to meet Chris', you gulped your own tears hoping it won't leave your eyes, "both of you, right now." you added as you look away. At the corner of your eyes, you could see Chris lowered his head and guided Mina to the front door. You followed them with your eyes glued on the carpet you stepped on, you didn't want to look at Chris' back. "wait there for a while," you heard Chris talk and closed the door after Mina stepped out. "YN," he said trying to reach out for your hand but you flinched away. "no, please leave," you whispered lowly but enough for him to hear it. You still refused to meet his eyes but you know he's been staring at you this whole time.

"I'm not doing this because I want to." He said again, before he gets something from his wallet and forcefully took your hand on his. "I said-" you were about to raise your voice on him but you stopped as he put a small golden key on your palm, folding your fingers so you're holding onto it. "this key is the prove that I only love you. I shouldn't be giving this to you yet and not like this but I have no other choice." You stares at him, at his warm eyes. You could see how this is hurting him too as much as it hurts you. Seeing how you were not backing away from him, he took few steps forward. "please be happy, eat a lot, take care of yourself even though I'm not here anymore." He said as he is now standing in front of you, pushing a few strands of your hair behind your ear. Your eyes are still on each others, refusing to let go the gaze "You can hate me all you want but please always know that this heart only beats for you," he added while putting your palm on his chest, letting you felt his heartbeat. Slowly he leaned closer and pressed his lips on your forehead, "I love you, YN."

And with that the wall you've been building to look strong in front of him just crumbles into pieces. Tears flowing down as you closed both your eyes when he kissed your forehead. Your body forgot how to function for a while. You let out a soft sniffles as he pulls away and with that you heard your door clicked. He left, forever.