Sk8er Boi

Numb

A/N: Here I am again... Hello!!! Updating right now!! Lol I made a new cover!! What do you think?? Old one or this one? I can't decide... Anyways, I'm going to get to writing so you don't have to listen to me ramble about nothing. 

They say when you love someone that no distance, no lack of communication, not anything can sever the bond. I have bags under my eyes once again. But not from my Brenna. She sleeps surprisingly well during the night. She rarely cries. The rings are from thinking about Ryan. Brenna begins to cry in her cradle, a rarity. I pick her up and hold her... I think about that one morning when I was still pregnant and he came over. We watched Up and he let me have the last piece of popcorn. And then he put his hand on my stomach and he impatiently waited for her to kick. What did he say again...? "I don't understand why that's so exciting for you. Your eyes light up every time."  Once I put her down again with a bottle I quickly put on some make up and got into a nicer pair of pajamas. After that, I grabbed my phone. 

Heyy, u wanna help me take care of Brenna? (: I send and a few minutes later my phone vibrates with his response. 

Can I? Wait, isn't it like 1:30 in the morning right now?? 

Me: yeah, but she's awake. I was just wondering if u wanted to c her. 

Him: I'll be right over =D 

Me: Okay (: 

I held Brenna in my arms tightly, holding her close like I'd never let her go. I waited in the living room, glancing out the curtains every few seconds. Just waiting to see when he was coming so he wouldn't have to ring the door bell and wake my parents up. I saw him in his hoodie and dark blue jeans with Vans, riding his skateboard in the middle of the road. I stand and go to the door, waiting for him to get a little close. I open it and step out onto the porch, waiting still. He rolls to a stop and bounds up the steps smiling at Brenna the whole time. He holds out his arms when he's close enough and I give her to him. He leans in and kisses her forehead. I grin like an idiot and lead him inside. I close the door behind him and realize the case on his back. 

"Is that a... guitar, Ryan?" I ask. 

"Oh, uh yeah. I was going to play a little for Brenna. Do you want to hear it?" he says shyly. 

"Sure, let's go into my room so my parent's won't wake up." I said, leading the way. I closed my door and he handed me Brenna as he got his guitar out. He looked down at Brenna and began to play his own little song, humming along. Brenna's blue eyes looked intently at Ryan and when he stopped playing, she gave him a really big toothless smile. 

"I have to go to the bathroom, can you watch Brenna for like three minutes?" I say, already walking towards the bathroom. I walk out and do my business in the bathroom... Not documenting that exciting moment in history. Sad, I know, right? I hear Brenna laughing and I stop behind a wall. I look in and see him lifting her in the air and playing "airplane" like my mom used to call it with her. He seemed to be having just as much fun as Brenna was and I grinned slightly as he cooed at her that he loved her. I almost went 'awwww' and ruined the moment but I managed to keep my mouth shut a little longer. Then I walked back in and smiled broadly. Ryan got a text and he glanced at it quickly.

"Hey, look, I gotta go. See ya." he said looking a little guilty. I could feel my face fall instantly.

"Where are you going?" I asked, curiosity getting the better of me. 

"Um... It's not important." he answered hastily, putting his guitar back 

"You can tell me, you know." I tried again. 

"I have a date." 

"With who?" I asked in disbelief. 

"Doesn't matter. I'll see you around. Bye." 

What is going on?? I asked to myself in confusion. The last time I checked he was in love with me. Maybe I had said goodbye too many times and he'd moved on, deciding that he deserved better. My heart ached as I held Brenna close to me. 

~*~ 

Mom wanted to watch Brenna for awhile leaving me with lots of free time. Without really thinking about it, I went through my closet and looked for the skateboard that I had shoved near the back. I ran out the door and went to the place I'd told Ryan about. It brought back so many memories and a sob caught in my throat. I would not cry. I began practicing but then I got hungry. I decided to go to the place where Ryan and I had icecream and I got whipped cream on my nose... Ugh. It was like I was trying to make myself remember. 

And that's when I saw them. Having breakfast together. Words can not describe how jealous I was. Ryan laughed at something she said and she flipped her hair over her shoulder. She was drop dead gorgeous. She had a perfect complexion, luscious blonde curls that flowed down her back, and stunning grey eyes. 

I sat down at a table where I could watch them and ordered the first thing I saw on the menu. By the time my food came, they were getting ready to leave. I brushed my hair behind my ear and tried to look normal. I look down at the table and I can feel the blush already rising to my cheeks. Ryan pushes in the girl's chair when she stands up and I almost get up and walk over to him. But I don't. I breathe in deeply and count to ten, trying to keep calm. 

I hear him say to her, "One second," I keep looking down at my plate. 

"Harley?" he asks hesitantly. I look up and plaster a smile on my face. 

"Hey, Ryan." 

"Why'd you order that?" he asks and I look down at my plate again. 

"Oh, um.." I purse my lips. I flounder for the words that I had minutes before. "I wanted a change?" I blurt out the first thing that comes to mind. 

"You said you'd puke if you ever ate that again." he reminds me. I shake my head slowly. 

"I said that?" I squeak. He laughs. 

"Yeah, you did. Want to just admit that you're stalking me?" he jokes. 

"I wouldn't stalk you." I say, giggling. Just to piss off the Barbie. 

"Well, I gotta go. Nice seeing you." Ryan says and stands up. Barbie smiles at him sweetly. 

"Without introducing me? You're so rude, sometimes Ry-Ry." I raise my eyebrows at the new nickname. 

"Oh. Um, Harley, this is Melissa. Melissa, this is Harley." 

"Nice to meet you, Melissa." I say, my voice is sugar-coated and a sweet smile lights up my face. 

"You too, Harley." she says with a charming smile. I can see it in her eyes, she's so jealous. 

"I'll see you around, Ryan." I say sweetly. I stand up and give him a hug. I do it for a little longer than a friend would. 

"See you around." He echoes meekly, not exactly sure why I'm acting so nice all of the sudden. 

A/N: Byesss guyss! A few more chapters and then we're done. I'm stalling, I know. Remember to 

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