Miserable Without You

Miserable Without You | 01

-"Chanyeol, I know I shouldn't say it but I can't keep it anymore. I.. I like you Chanyeol."
-"What!?"
-"Ugh!! Let's just forget about it. Pretend like you didn't hear anything ok?"
-"Why? Baek you said you like me? like for real? Omg I'm not dreaming right? Yess!! finally. I like you too Baekhyun. No! I love you.."

-"Chan, what do you want to be in the next 5 years?"
-"A singer. Music is my life you know. I even wrote a few songs myself. I'll show it to the world one day."
-"Wow I'm proud of you babe"
-"Thanks, what about you Baek?"
-"If you're a singer then let me be your biggest fan! I'll support everything you do and make sure to watch every stage you perform. I just want to be with you Chanyeol. "

-"Here! we will build a café here."
-"You want to build a café?"
-"Yeah, Let's build a café here! You'll be a singer and I'll make coffee. We'll have our own world here just you and me."
-"ohh, so I will be stuck with you all day."
-"Come on, you love me. You'll like it sweetheart."
-"of course I do. Can't wait for it to happens."

-"Let's break up."
-"Wha.. what?"
-"You heard me right. Let's break up."
-"But why? What did I do wrong?"
-"There's nothing wrong. I just have something to do. I love music and my dream is to be a singer. I was born to be a star Baekhyun. It's the only thing I want that's why I can't just live here with you and doing nothing but listen to your useless story all the time. I need to leave. Can't you understand? I deserve a better life. "
-"But I love you Chanyeol. We love each other. Isn't it enough?"
-"No, it's not. Your love will never be enough."

Chanyeol's POV

-"Chanyeol. Chanyeol are you ok?" I slowly woke up and realized that I dreamed about it again.
-"Chanyeol" Suho called me. He's my manager and the only one friend I have now. Although my music made me famous.. You heard it right. I'm famous. With all the records I broke, millions of album that sold out every year, I can finally say that I'm famous now but is my life getting any better? The answer is "No". I feel so lonely all the time...

and regret.

-"Chanyeol you're crying in you sleep" yeah, again.
-"You sure that you're ok?"
-"Emm, I'm ok. It just.. It just a dream" A dream that always follows me almost every single night in these past 3 years. I tried everything I could to get rid of it but nothing changed. I still have that same old dream at least twice a week and the problem is it felt so real. Like I was brought to my old town again, my old home, old school, my old me.
-"The one you always have. isn't it? What is it about seriously?"
-"My past. But suho I don't want to talk about it now please don't ask."
-"Just remember that you can always tell me about it ok? Alright! you have an interview today. After that you'll see Mr.Kim in his office for your up coming album. Also, Ms.Lee want to.."
I closed my eyes trying to calm myself down a bit because things were just getting worse and worse lately. Every day wake up by my manager aka Suho, listen to his 'oh so boring but I have to do' list, pretend to smile pretend to be happy so no one will ask what's wrong with me, act nice to every person I meet cuz my actions can be put on the cover of magazine and newspapers every morning, finish all the thing I was told to do then go to bed with the same dream again and again. 

Sometimes I look into the mirror and ask myself " Is it what I want?" My life is full of nothing but the fake smile, fake people, fake friends and fake happiness. I worked hard day and night just to become a fucking machine that can only sing and smile like what people want me to be. Some day, I wish I could go back to the time when woke up with the smell of my mom's breakfast, went to school by bus so I could meet my friends there 'my real friends', I was a trouble maker at school but most of my teachers didn't seem to really mind it at all because I gave my homework regularly and handsome af, usually arrived on time but often skipped the lastest class because I wanted to see..

him

someone who's once was my world.

I wonder what's he doing now? Is he still the same? That kid talks a lot and it's really annoying some time but you'll still want to be with him because he always has a smile that can light up the whole town. His skin so soft and white that Snow White almost lose her job because of him.
His eyes, nose and lips are just so gorgeous.

Everything about him is perfect. My boyfriend is perfect. Oh sorry.. my Ex boyfriend is perfect.

I'm sure he must be living a good life he always plans to have now.
The only thing that different is it's Without me.

I miss you so much. Byun Baekhyun

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