I don't know how to feel

How it all started

(WARNING this fanfic contains abuse, drinking,cutting, suicidal tendencies , yaoi, and homophobia, so if you aren't ok with that or are sensitive to the topic please don't read )

Adrien walked through the streets trying to hind from his body guard not because he didn't want to go home well not entirely he didn't want to see his father since Adrien was 10 Gabriel had started hitting him because he thought he was the reason his mom died, it didn't start until Adrien woke up in the middle of the night and snuck downstairs wanting to talk to his father about something bothering him to see his father drinking, having already learned not to bother his father he tried to sneak back up to his room but he knocked over a stand that fell into a picture of his mother. He tried to hide but his father left the kitchen all to soon he yanked Adrien to his office by the wrist ,holding the bottle in the other hand, and trying to keep his composure, despite being completely drunk, he asked Adrien what he was doing.

Adrien: um so there's something I wanted to talk to you about

Gabriel: can't it wait till the morning

Adrien: not really you see it kind of has been bugging me for a while

Gabriel: make it quick

Adrien: I- I think I like guys

Gabriel looked at his son and he stood there hoping it was some sick joke when he realized it wasn't he lifted the bottle in his hand and brought it down hard, a crash sound rang throughout the room along with Adrien crying, Natalie rushes into the room to see what happened and her eyes widened with what she saw, Gabriel holding half a broken bottle in one hand Adrien in the other who had blood running down his head. " Natalie go bandage him up and make sure nobody else knows about this." Natalie simply nodded and took Adrien out of the office and cleaned his wounds , all Adrien could remember his immense pain and wishing for his mother back he still has the big scar and just hides it with his hair.

(5 years later)
(Adrien's pov)

Adrien returned for another day of school he still hasn't told anyone about his sexuality and frankly he's scared because he notices all the girls like him he just pretends not to so no one will be suspicious of him,. However today was especially difficult today they were getting a teacher aid the teacher introduced him and he started telling us a bit about him.
" hello my name if Luka couffaine but you can just call me Luka and some of you may know my sister" he says gesturing to Juleka" I like music and that's about it." That's when I heard a dreamy sigh that's when I realized Marinette was behind me and she liked Luka I couldn't help but feel jealous but I didn't know why I now realize that I also was in love with Luka and I was determined to make him mine.

(Luka's pov)

I'm back at school but this time I don't have to worry about passing my tests, I'm the new teachers assistant and I'm really excited and who knows I might just find a boyfriend yeah that's right boyfriend have been out of the closet for 3 I found out when I was 15 when I got a crush on this dude, but he's not important right now, anyway I just introduced myself and as I look around I see a girl with deep blue hair and blues eyes and right off I can tell she likes me I know that sounds conceded but I've been doing this for 18 years now trust me I can tell. Although she's didn't catch my eye as much a the blonde boy in front of her I recognized him he's Adrien Agreste he's everywhere and now that I see him I understand the hype I thought it was all photoshopped but dang from his perfect blonde hair to his peridot/emerald eyes his feminine body type and, I'm getting off topic I simply winked at him and watch his face heat up to a pink shade 'this is going to be fun' thought to myself I'm gonna make him mine if it kills me.