The Alpha King's Mate

CHAPTER 32

Alexander's POV

I couldn't stop the need for my wolf to kiss our mate. And I admit, I badly do want it, too. I've waited for this for so long, to hold her and to kiss her. And when I did, I didn't regret any of my actions for kissing her so suddenly without her permission. Sparks flew all over when my lips found hers. I couldn't stop myself to moan while kissing her for it felt so good, damn good! Heat enflamed my body and I wanted more. More than just a kiss. But when I felt she was tensed by the kiss I abruptly let her go.

Then suddenly her feelings came rushing through me. Her sadness, the pain and hurt she had been keeping inside filled me. I felt that she felt sorry for herself and that she think lowly of herself.

But she is my Mate. Nothing can change that or no one can ever stop me from having her and claiming her!

Even if she feels not worthy of herself to become my mate, I will make her see it and prove to her that she had every right to be mine.

That she was perfectly made just for me.

"No, you don't understand.." she said while tears already streaming down her face "I am not the mate you would want to have!" Her chest is heaving up and down from her emotions "So please just reject me before you regret it.."

Before responding to her I quickly grab the tray of food on my lap and put it down on the table and face her.

"Why? Why are you pushing me away?" I grabbed her face between my hands but then she pulled away. But I am determined to convince her that I am not going anywhere or reject her.

"You are my mate! You can't change that! And you can't just tell me to reject you! How could you even want that?"

"Because you don't understand!"

"Then tell me! Make me understand!"

We were yelling at each other. Eyes blazing with different emotions.

I did not expect us to be like this. I was expecting to see we are wrapped up in each other or tangled up in the bed for it is what mates usually do.

Once again I sat beside her and face her "Make me understand" I look into her eyes to make her see that I am really sincere with her.

"I can't.." then she just cried even more. Her eyes filled with so much sadness and despair.

My wolf howled inside me reaching for his mate. He urges me to touch our mate and comfort her.

Once again, I hold her face and she was pulling away but I hold her tight and leaned down to her, and put her forehead to mine. So our faces were so close to each other.

Leaning my forehead to hers, I look her in the eyes but she shut her eyes not wanting to look at me.

"Hey, please," I said gently "Please, look at me."

But she's not listening to me, still, she held her eyes close while her tears kept pouring down her face. Though sparks and tingles crawled up to my skin, I felt more of the heartaches and pains that surrounded her heart. Something was keeping her, stopping her to give in to the call of our bond. To reach and embrace the bond of being our mate. I can feel her fear, nervousness, and trembling under my touch. And I was worried for her. I can't let her be like this every time I would touch her.

"What is it that stopping you from not wanting me to be your mate?" My voice was low and hoarse. Desperate for her to accept me and not push herself away "The Moon Goddess knows how much I wanted to find my mate. To find you. And now that you're here I won't let you go.."