The Badass Sister

Quitting is an option.

Edited

"Why are you in contact with your brother" Josh from management screams in Ashley's face as she sits in one of the spinny chairs she hates so much.

"Your not meant to be talking to your brother yet we find photos of you and his band mate, shoving each others tongues down each other's mouths, not even that you've gain weight, how do you except the fans to love you if your being a slut and fat"

His words stung as they always did to Ashley, her past meant she wasn't as strong as she would be. The words cut like knifes into her skin and she found herself wincing and staring out of the window.

Don't think about it, he doesn't mean it, your not a slut, your not fat
Ashley kept repeating this to herself as Josh kept telling her about everything bad about herself that she couldn't change.

"You've gained weight, your acting like a slut, you drink to much and swear to much" his voice echoed in Ashley's mind. Her thoughts were clouding her judgment.

"RIGHT YOU LISTEN HERE, I AM NOT FAT OKAY I AM UNDERWEIGHT FOR MY AGE, I AM NOT A SLUT, AND I DONT GIVE TWO SHIT'S ABOUT WHAT YOU'VE GOT TO SAY ABOUT IT" Ashley was crying. Hot tears streamed out of her eyes rolling down her cheeks. Her thoughts were so triggering that she had just lost it.

"Miss, we are only going what is good for you?" Josh questioned himself. He didn't really know he got told what to say and do. None of Ashley's management knew about her past. 

"what's good for me is the boys, and if you can't see that then I can't be apart of this anymore," this boost of confidence will soon run out and Ashley will be stuck alone again.

Over the past 4 years Ashley and the boys had been close, they knew about her past, her battles her ex boyfriend's. Out of all of them her and Niall were the closest, she had always had a soft spot for him.

"I quit" and with that Ashley stormed out of the door slamming it as hard as she could.

Ashley was upset to say the least. Her thoughts were becoming too much for her to handle.

She didn't wait for the lift instead she ran down the stairs toward the main doors and forced them opened and was greeted by screaming fans.

Ashley wiped her tears as quick as she could, the closer fans screaming if she was alright.

"I LOVE YOU ALL," she shout into the Crowd of screaming people, she totally done I mean she just quit her job?!

"NEVER LISTEN TO WHAT PEOPLE SAY OKAY? YOU GUYS HAVE PERFECT BODY'S, AND YOU SHOULDN'T HARM YOURSELF OVER SOMEONE SAYING STUPID SHIT."  Ashley screams once again before running toward her car and jumping in.

Her tears start to fall again as she starts the engine and starts to head to Liam's house stopping at a couple of places before she gets there.

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Liam is worrying like mad when it hits 10 at night. Ashley left her's at 7 this morning and she still isn't back?

Where is she? She said she had a meeting with management but that doesn't take 15 hours Liam thinks.

all the boys were starting to get worried, they looked at Liam and their phones for reassurance that she is okay but there is nothing. They yet again put down their phones from calling her. Niall is the worst, he's on the edge of his sit jumping at every sound. His breathing is shallow and he wishes Ashley would just come home.

"Still not answering Liam" Harry says, pressing his home button on his iPhone so his screen lights up.

"She better be alright" Liam whispers as he sit's down on the sofa. His head is in his hand's and Zayn is hugging his sideways reassuring him that she will be okay.

Niall hear's Ashley's key turn in the door, and not long after she stumbles in, drunk and unaccountable for her whereabouts. Niall is the first to react screaming loudly.

"GUYS GUESS WHAT, I'm a fat ugly whore" she tells the boy's as she stumbles towards them, her thoughts are clouding her mind as she see Niall and Liam so she shuts her eyes. Not being able to see she stumbles and Niall being the closest to her catches her.

What is happening to her, what happened to the happy girl, the one that didn't care, she didn't drink or gdo anything bad, what did they turn her into Liam sighs.

"hey Niall, they called me a slut for kissing you? But did you feel the butterfly's in your stomach? Did you? Cause I felt them, damn Ni they were strong, did you feel what I felt?" Ashley questions a startled Niall, he's unable to answer, he doesn't want to say the wrong thing.

What Ashley says is the truth. She likes Niall no forget that she loves the little Irish fella, who is now holding her waist supporting her.

The question goes unanswered, Ashley feels faint so she doesn't push Niall for answer.

Her mind is screaming at her telling her that none of them care, that Niall and Liam are just using her.

Niall hugs Liam's fragile sister and whispers "I did" as she passes out from what the boys think is alcohol but is actually a panic attack.

The rest of the boys just sit on the sofa watching Ashley and Niall closely, no one has moved from their spots other than Niall who picks Ashley up in a bridal style and starts to carry her towards the stairs.

She asked Niall if he had felt the butterfly's, but for Niall they weren't butterfly's they were explosions in the pit of of his stomach, she make him tingle just by saying his name. He stares at Ashley in his arms as they reach the bottom of the stairs.

When Niall reaches the top of the stairs he kisses Ashley's forehead and hopes that she is still out of it.

He places her on her bed and tucks her into the blankets, he kisses her forehead again swearing he saw her smile.

"I love you" he whispers, stroking her blue hair into place, he smiles down at her before turning on his heel and leaving the room.

Ashley felt Niall kiss her forehead and She slowly open's her eyes  to see him shutting her bedroom door.

In her drunken state she manages a
"I love you to, ni I love you too" out of her mouth, it didn't sound like that out loud but she tried.

She passed out after that, dreaming of a better life where everything was perfect, unlike her.

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