Dear Crushes

Chapter 6: JILTED

REJECTION, REJECTION! It's all I ever get I might as well name the book rejection! Honestly it's my whole love life! I think I found someone to love! Someone I spill things to! Someone I can cry to! But no! It happened with Bryslin and Autumn. They just want to talk and talk and talk I'm just their toy, whenever they're bored of me they'll throw me out and ignore me.
She used to stop me in the hallway and talk to me with glee! But today she just ignored me. She started to tell me it was because Sam ( my friend who's her age ) told her what she did was fucked up and it hurt me. She told me that's what he said and how she felt so bad. I didn't care. I'm tired of it. I'll find someone say this is who likes me but no it's not they don't give a shit.
That night was the hardest night ever. I started at the wall telling myself I'm useless I prayed to God that if he wanted to kill me, I'd be fine, I have no purpose in this world. Nobody to love. In band our theme is Jilted ( to be rejected ) and I never felt the music and played it so well with style till then I was heartbroken after months and months of building a relationship with her it doesn't work. I feel the music how being rejected and heartbroken feels how it tears you apart leaving you to clean up the broken pieces alone. Thinking to yourself you're a fool for thinking she'd ever like you. I'm just honestly tired of feeling awkward because I'm afraid of being rejected the first time I grow a pair of balls and tell a girl I like her she says fuck you and goes with another guy. Right now I may go full dick head but screw it! I knew from the beginning she got around fucking other men! Hell she was 16 when she got a tattoo! I'm not surprised she played with me and then left me to fuck some other vaping loser! And really I probably don't mean it because I'm the "nice guy" all the fucking popular girls love you when y'all are friends but when you are attracted to them they fuck you over and then when I'm not nice to them it's my fucking fault! Screw them! Im done with love and this will be the last chapter for awhile!