Here We Go Again

just a shell

I'm trying not to think about how I haven't seen you for a few days.
How you might be ill.
Or maybe your brain is going crazy.
How are you going to work through that without me this time?
I don't mean to put myself to a high standard but I've always been there for you and you've always turned to me.
But now you can't.
We aren't friends anymore.
That was your choice.
I can't change that.
But I can't just flip a switch and stop caring about people.
Not like you can.
I try to be glad we aren't friends any more.
I mean you threw that friendship away like it was nothing.
Like I was nothing.
So maybe it's good to not give someone so much power over me when they never even cared.
But even so I care.
For years you were my best friend.
The one I told everything to.
When anything went on in my life I turned to you.
We were a team.
Best friends.
And now,
Now we're nothing.
Just a shell memory of a past life.