Pain (A Virgil x Reader Love Story)

My Demons Came To Hunt Me

It Seemed Fate Decided That This Day Went So Well So I Need To Have A Little Bad Luck. My Sleep Was Peacefull At First But Then It Got Bad, Really Bad. At First I Didn't Know Who I Was So Scared Of But It Didn't Take Me Long To Realise I Was Scared Of Duke And Deceit. They Weren't Harming Me But They Kept Whispering "You'll Never Be A Good Side. They Are Lying To You. They Will Only Betray You And Hurt You Even More. You Should Have Stayed In The Shadows Where You Belong. Your Pathetic, Wanting To Be A Good Side, Hahaha, Pathetic. Your Pain Achilla And Nothing Will Ever Change That! You Will Always Be One Of Us!". The Longer They Whispered The Louder They Got Till It Came To A Deafening Yell. I Curled Up In A Ball, Shivering. They Accepted Me... Right? Im One Of Them Now, Aren't I? But The Louder The Yelling Got The More Unsure I Was. It Became Harder And Harder To Control Myself, Not To Break Down. I Woke Up With A Start, Shaking With Tears Streaming Down My Face. I Didn't Notice That My Condition Became Worse And That If I  Hadn't Woken Up That I Would Have Let All The Pain Out. Deceit And Duke Were Right, Ill Always Belong To The Dark Sides. But... I Don't Want To Hide In The Shadows, Please Don't Let Me Hide Away, Alone For All Eternity. I Stayed Curled Up In A Ball, Sobs Wrecking My Body. I Stayed Like That Till The Sun Rose. I Shakily Got Up And Splashed Some Water On My Face And Dried It. I Looked In The Mirror To See Me With Dark Bags Under My Pain Filled Eyes And My Dark Hair A Mess, At Least The Tear Tracks Are Under Control. Should I See If Anyone Else Is Awake? Should I Even See Them At All? My Shaking Got Even Worse. I Was Scared And Didn't Know What To Do. Until I Remembered What Virgil Said Yesterday, I Know What To Do... Hopefully. I Opened My Door, Closed It And Started Walking Towards Virgil's Bedroom. What If What He Said Yesterday Is A Lie? What If Deceit And Duke Are Right, What If They Really Betray Me? But They Wouldn't... Would They? I Shook My Head, Banishing Those Thoughts Away. I Could See The Door And My Already Slow Footsteps Slowed Down Even More. I Stood There With My Shaking Right Hand Raised, Ready To Knock. I Took A Deep Breath And Knocked On The Door. I Waited For Some Time And Just As I Was About To Leave, Virgil Opened The Door. Upon Seeing Me There, Looking Down And Shifting My Feet, He Sighed And Told Me To Come In. He Directed Me To His Couch And We Sat Down. He Looked At Me Expectedly, Wanting Me To Go Ahead And Talk. I Took A Deep Breath And Told Him About My Worries. The More I Told Him The More Worried I Became, I Started To Doubt Myself. Virgil Broke My Bubble Of Worry "I Felt That Way Too, Trust Me The More You Are With Them You Realise That They Could Never Do That. We May Have Been Dark Sides But We Aren't Any More. Nobody Can Ever Change That But Ourselves. You Don't Have To Worry About Us Not Wanting You Either Because We Do". We Sat There In Silence When Virgil Stood Up And Extended His Hand. "Want To See What They're Up To?". I Smiled, Nodded And Took His Hand. Neither Of Us Noticed That We Continued To Thomas's Living Room Hand In Hand.
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Im So Sorry For Not Updating In Two Months, I Got A Writer's Block And I Didn't Know Where To Go With The Story. Despite The Chapters Shortness I Hope You Enjoyed The Chapter.