𝓐𝓼 𝓦𝓮 𝓛𝓪𝔂

Ch.5: Another Notch On My Belt

For over a month I was juggling three men. Even though what I've been doing lately is totally disrespectful. I think the most disrespectful thing I've done up to this day, is have sex with Darius after my dress fitting...In a dressing room, in the boutique! My mother & Lex had left after my fitting & Darius showed up after texting me. He questioned the location & I played it off by saying Lex was getting married & I was trying on my bridesmaid dress. A whole mess!

I had gotten so good at this shit that I had it down to a science. I was waking up early to fuck Dre, or giving him a hand or blow job. I had to keep my main man happy & satisfied because if he wasn't he'd start questioning me.

Like I said before, real players don't get caught. Dre doesn't suspect a thing & thinks I'm faithful. I plan on keeping it that way. He's probably fucking Dawn anyway, who still blows up his phone. I don't even give two shits about that anymore because I'm satisfied.

Darius would hit me up on his lunch break, show up & I'd have a lunch quicky with him. Sometimes we'd do it in either one of our cars in the parking garage. It was always on & popping when I seen his fine ass.

Then I'd finished out the day with Maurice over the phone. With a business trip coming up, he was about to be on my hit list again. Our FaceTime phone sex was the bomb! He had me craving him, wanting & lusting after his ass. I wanted him in the worse way & since he wasn't near, I'd just fuck a dude in my rotation that was.

One day while getting hit from behind by Darius, it hit me. As my orgasm had my body shaking & almost wiping my mind clean, it became so clear to me. I was addicted to sex.

I had obviously developed a serious problem over the last month or so & didn't realize it until that very moment.

I knew it was a problem because no matter how many times I'd tell myself that I had to stop & that Dre was it for me. I couldn't fucking stop!

I was fucking on these dudes so close together, it would make a sane person's head spin. You'd think I would be tired or my shit would be loose, but nope. My shit was as tight as a drum & no matter how many times I'd tell myself, one today. Just one. I'm only fuckin' one man, telling myself just Dre.

I ended up fucking both & having phone sex with Maurice. I was out of control! Sex had my soul. It had my mind, it was all I could ever think about. I was craving these niggas like my favorite food. My body was addicted to an orgasm. I was wiser as time went on, condoms & pulling out was the only option. There was no more cumming in me, not even Dre. I didn't want a kid right now.

I kept all my shenanigans to myself because Lex had already shown me that she disapproved. Since she was deeply in love with Carl, her fiancè & I had been cheated on in the past, her mind couldn't compute what I was doing. My mother was in love, in a motherly way with Dre, she was already calling him her son.

Every other hour of the day, so it seemed, I was having some type of sex. It was amazing I had time for work. Honestly, I don't know if this shit is working in my favor but I love it. Darius even started to catch feelings for me, I could tell. He wanted me to meet important people in his life. Of course I came up with some lame ass reason why I couldn't. I had to draw the line in the sand somewhere. The lines were getting blurred like a motha fucka.

He was never supposed to catch feelings & the fact that he was, was going to be a problem. It's going to make cutting him off eventually, even harder. That's why I'm mad at myself for letting it get to this point.