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grace | ed

grace — thomas headon
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ethan having a hopeless crush on a girl named grace

there's this girl. she thinks she's a little bit weird. i don't get it.

she always talks about the little things she loves in life. like pot plants inside, cold hands, tea stained cups, and winter but when it's not too cold outside.

she's always wearing a pair of cool socks too. like the other night when we were driving around aimlessly for hours, her socks had little green dinosaurs on them.

she is the type of girl that i would simply fall head over heels for.

but there's the problem. i can't fall in love right now. i want to, but i can't. not yet anyway.
stop it ethan.

i just don't wanna waste it all on a girl that could easily come and go in the blink of an eye.

but i know that one day, when the time comes, grace and i will perfectly yet momentarily cross paths. and when we do i'm gonna fall in love with grace.

momentarily.
adverb
1. for a very short time

once our moment passes life will continue to inch along. i'll go back to my monotonous routine and she'll be off adventuring. or maybe in a little vintage shop looking at old phones and analogue clocks.

this girl runs circles in my mind all day and all night, and there is nothing i can do about these things that i feel. not because i'm scared, but because shes got a boyfriend somewhere.

i don't think he's right for her though. in that same car ride he called her and all that i managed to gather from the small snippets of conversation was that he likes to shout on the phone.

they always seem to be mad at each other too. that can't be good. it's the worst when she's alone though. some of the stories she's told me haven't painted the best picture for this guy.

i wouldn't treat her like he does. i'd treat her in the same way i want to be treated, as a decent human being. with kindness, respect, compassion and understanding.

wow, she is so cool. i wish that i could have her.

but grace only seems to go for the guys that are in love with her. i don't know if i could call it that. now or ever. i don't want to put my heart and emotions out to just anyone to come and stomp on, again.

love is vulnerable. i want to fall in live i really do but i can't put myself through it again.

i think i'll always be waiting for grace though. a hopeless crush. time will pass while she effortlessly drifts through my thoughts.

will she be patiently waiting to love me in the same way that i could love her? i guess i'll never find out.

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i wrote this at 1 in the morning and haven't edited it yet, but here's a shitty little story anyhow :)