I DON'T MIND by Joanne Brown

Why me?

   Then I started to notice some weird stuff Noah did when he was around me. He was always nervous when he was talking to me. Was always trying to be with me in class and have lunch with me. And then, I realized he had a crush on me. I was spechless. He couldn't have a crush on me! Sarah had a hudge crush on him! What kind of friend would that make me? The friend that " steels" our crush? Of course I didn't like him but it made me feel like a horrible person anyways. I really didn't know what to do so I kept everything for myself.
   The time passed and he still had a crush on me! As the time passed it was getting harder and harder. When I got home from schol I would always lock myself in my room and cry and talk about what was happening. Of course I didn't know my sister was listenning to everything but she was. I was like a bomb that was about to explode, so that was when I broke the promisse I had made to myself. I was gonna comit suicide again. But this time I was not gonna make a video. I was gonna do it in my room peacfully without my parents and friends' knowledge. What I didn't know was that my sister heard everything and ran down the stairs and told my parents. That ran to my room and tried to listen to what I was doing. When I decided the way I was gonna kill myself I told myself out loud:
   -I'm gonna drown myself. I'll get a bucket of water and put my head there until I die.
   So I opened my door, and my parents and sister hide in the bathroom, and I got a bucket from the kitchen. In the meantime my family hide under my bed and waited. I was finding it very weird that mt parents weren' home but I thought it would be good cause they wouldn't hear me. I filled  the bucket with water in the bathroom and ran back to my room. All I remember was to put my head on the water and to hear a weird noise.