Infinity

Chapter 7

      I sat alone in my bedroom, staring out my window. It was raining outside. How perfect for my mood. I watched the rain pour, dripping down my window as I thought about Chris. Should I believe him? Should I forget about what I read in his diary...about Annabelle...about having to move on from me.

         On one hand, he had said that he loved her now, not me. He had said described her hair in such vivid, loving detail. Maybe he said it reminded him of me, but still, he loved her. He loved her hair. He probably loved everything about her. Yet, he also said moving on was for my sake. So, he must have cared about me a little, even when he wrote that.

       I can't think straight. I want to be with him, yet at the same time, how can I trust him. He wasn't with me for the longest time. He won't tell me where he was. He was probably with Annabelle! Maybe he travelled with her for a while...maybe he left me behind adventuring with her.  He probably kissed me like that just to toy with my emotions. To make me forget.

      Yeah. To make me forget my pain.

    Maybe he's just abusing me mentally. Maybe I really should be rid of him. I let a exasperated breath escape my lips turning my head to look towards my closed bedroom door. I needed to get outside. I needed to do something to cure my angst and depression.

    I slipped off the small seat I had made for myself in the window, walking relunctantly towards the door. I opened it slowly, my breathing getting heavier and shakier. Right there, standing just steps outside my doorway I was crying. I was sobbing in fact. 

I just got him back in my life and now I wanted to cast him aside?
I really am stupid.