Just read it and find out I'm too lazy to write a description lol I wrote this 4 years ago in 2020 maybe even before that so it will be discontinued as I have lost interest but updates will still be available until I run out of draft chapters
have to get this over and done with "you've been standing there staring out the window for about half an hour now are you okay?" I hear making my snap out of thought and turn around seeing the girls looking back at me while sitting on the bed
"I'm fine" I say walking back over to them and sitting down with them "clearly your not fine" Mila says
"You've been staring at the window with hatred" Dinah says making me look down as I feel a hand on my arm making me look back up at Lauren "what's on your mind?" She asks making me sign and look away from her
"It's just... I never thought that this whole thing would catch up to me so soon and here I am in this situation" I say as she rubs my arm and Camila moves closer to me and rests her head on my shoulder while rubbing my back
"You maybe in this situation but you're not alone you have us and your best friends" Dinah says making me smile and nod as she is right I do have them and my friends
"I know but I still can't help but think what if something goes terribly wrong" I says and Camila lifts her head and looks at me "there what if's for a reason" she says making me looks at her
"Plus you have us as back up" Lauren says with a small smile "how about we don't think about this until tomorrow because I'm sure we all don't want a day full of worrying?" Mila asks and we all agree with her and go and have breakfast with Ally and Mani
After breakfast we all do our own little thing and then something pops in my head
If this is the last time I see the girls... I want them to have something to remember me by
I walk into my office making sure I didn't get spotted and walk over to the book case and pull a book making a door open and I walk in it as it close behind me and the lights turn on as I look around
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When I was younger before my family was abusive they never paid attention to me so I found something that I could focus on music was my escape I love making music but then everything changed...
I write down a few ideas and then get started on making the beat and tones for my songs I am making to put on a disk for the girls
After I do that I start with the lyrics so I go over to the microphone and put the headset on and start recording
After them four songs I made a few more times with the interments and then imported them on a disk
"E" I say
"Yes y/n" she says
"If I don't come back with the girls tomorrow I want you to give them this for me" I say and hold out the disk and a robot arm come out and takes it of me
"I also want you to tell them something for me" I say and I see a screen come out "why not record what you are going to say so you can tell them yourself" E says this is why she is handy
"Good idea" I say and press the record button and then step back and sit down looking at my hands
I take a breath and look at the camera "girls if your seeing this... Then that means I'm not with you" I say swallowing a lump in my throat
"E must of given you this disk by now, I wanted you three to have something that reminds you of me just incase I'm no long around" I say looking back down and I take of my sunglasses and look back at the screen
"Girls I... I know I didn't speak very much but I hope the disk can speak for me as I'm not good with this sort of thing" I nervously laugh a little and scratch the back of my neck
"What I'm trying to say is... You girls are the best thing that ever happened to me and I wouldn't change it for the world" I speak feeling the sadness in my heart
"Camila... your goofy ness never fails to make me laugh with your cheesy pick up line and jokes" I chuckle as I remember her jokes
"Dinah... your cool and your pranks are the best and you never fail to make me smile I'm also jealous of your snap back collection" I say with a little huff with a smile
"Lauren... you never fail to make me feel better when I'm worried, upset or just even to hot" I says with a little chuckle as well "you made me feel better about myself and I appreciate that" I say and look at the disk that the robot is holding
"You girls make me the better version of myself you make me feel more confident and comfortable with who I am because I can tell you don't care what I am.. you just care who I am... I really do love that about you girls... I love your cuddles and kiss, I love that you can be yourself's around me or anyone, I love...I love..." I look back down at my hands playing with my glasses I then look up dead into the camera
"I love you girls" I say with a smile and then look away "that's the first time I said that but it's true... I do" I say licking my lips "I don't want you girls to be upset... I want you to live happily" I look around the room and take another breath
"I'm sorry we didn't have a long life together but hopefully you will have a long life with each other" I speak and look into the camera "looks after each other I'll always be with you watching from up there and I didn't want to leave without saying goodbye so... Goodbye... I love you" I say and stop the recording
