The Smile That He Wore

Chapter 5

Lance's POV

Keith grabbed me and turned me around. Our faces were so close if I moved forward an inch we would be kissing. We made eye contact and he asked me if we could talk privately about something. I got nervous because of our close proximity and backed up. But I agreed to go to his room to talk. On the way to his room there was silence which gave my mind the ability to run wild and think of all the things he might want to talk about.

"He found out I like him."

"He hates me and never wants to see me again."

"I did awful during training and he wants to yell at me."

Were some of the thoughts that I thought as we approached his room. I was nearing a panic attack but stopped myself before it got too bad.

We reach Keith's room and go inside. Keith sits down on his bed as I just awkwardly stood at the door. He patted on the bed next to him telling me to sit next to him. He then suddenly looked very serious and turned to face me.

Keith's POV

I stared into Lances eyes as we were sitting on my bed. I thought about how I was going to start this conversation. I decided to just be straight forward with it and just ask about the scars. I just hoped he wouldn't react badly.

"So... Lance during the... um... training we did earlier I saw something on body and I wanted to know if everything was okay."

I paused for a minute to see if he had any reaction. He looked slightly confused so I decided to continue my statement.

"I saw scars and cuts and I wanted to know where they came from. I don't want to invade your personal affairs but I really care about you and I want to be there for you."

His face fell after I said these words. I could see his eyes glaze over as he thought about what to say.

Lance's POV

I began to cry after I thought about what he said. Does he really care about me? Does he care about me as much as I care about him? Or does he just want to know and then make fun of me.

"Do you really care or are you just bluffing? Why should I tell you? You never seemed to care about me before now so how do I know if you even really care?"

Keith looked baffled. He quickly stopped Lance before he could say anymore so he could explain himself.

"Why wouldn't I care about my teammate and friend. I only pretended not to like you because you made up that stupid rival thing. I never hated you or anything like that.", Keith said before he mumbled "actually it's the opposite I really love you," under his breath. (Lance didn't hear him mumble)

After Keith said that I was shocked but decided to believe him. I told him about how I was struggling with depression and being away from my mama and my family wasn't helping either. I told him I struggled to fall asleep most nights and how when I couldn't I would go train or I would cut or do both. I also told him about how I had this huge crush on someone but I know they will never love me back. He tried reassuring me and telling me that Allura will come around but that only seemed to make me more upset. Because it wasn't Allura I was talking about it was him.

After we talked for a little longer about other things, I felt tired so I went to my room to sleep for once this week.

Keith's POV

After lance left, I couldn't fall asleep. I just kept thinking about how he said he was discouraged about Allura not liking him back. I got super jealous after he said that.

I was mad at Allura for making lance even more sad then he already was. After I had that thought I thought about how everybody treated lance like crap. I thought about how Shiro always yelled at him and how Pidge always called him and idiot. Hunk never hung out with him that much and more either. Then how I always fought with lance. I realized that things needed to change.