Changing Him (hayes Grier fan fic book #1)

Chapter 16

Monica's POV

I got home and went to room and just cried for about one hour till all the boys came in

"Hey baby girl how are you" cam asked

"Ok i guess" I said then the room filed with silence untill the doorbell rang Aaron got up and got it

"Monica come here" he said and I went to door and saw a Sargent

" are you Monica Ventura Saldana" the officer asked

" yes what's going on" I asked

"We are sorry to say but your brother Jose has died he got shot and passed right away" he said I was on the floor crying and Guero and Cam came to me

"What happened" Guero asked and the officer told him and he was crying as well as Cam and the man left

"Hey wats wrong" Hayes asked

"Mm-y my brother died" I said crying even more

All the boys came to me to me and gave me a hug

"We are so sorry moka" Nash said we got up and went to my room

"Why does every thing happen to me when all I try to do is be brave yea I show my emotions my parents don't give a shit about me no one does besides you guys my sister never calls or anything the last time I saw her was 5 years ago before she left then all of what happened to day I just want to fuken die ok I'm done with everything" I just broke down crying

"Look Monica we don't know you as much as Cam but we all know your better then this I get that is hard believe me I know wat it feels like but just do it for your brother I bet he's looking at you right now wanting you to stop crying wipe them tears and tell us one thing that can fix you" Nash said his eyes teary

"Music" i said

"What's your favorite rap song" Jack j said

"When I'm gone by Eminem" I said

"Ok Jack you and shawn sing and I'll rap ready " Jack j asked

Have you ever love some one so much you give an arm for not the expression literally give an arm for when they know they're your heart and you know you were their armour and you will destroy any one who would try to harm her but what happens when karma turns right around and bite you and every thing you stand for turns on you to spite you what happens when you become the main source of her pain "daddy look what I made" dads gotta go catch a plane "daddy weres mommy I can't find mommy where is she I don't know Hailie , baby your daddy's busy daddy's writing a song the song ain't go write it's self I'll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by your self then turn right around on that song and tell her you love her and put hands on her mother that's a spitting image of her that's slim shady yah baby slim shady's crazy shady made me but tonight I'm rocka by baby

And when I'm gone

Just carry on don't mourn

Rejoice every time you hear

The sound of my voice

Just know that I'm looking down

On you smiling

And I didn't feel a thing

So baby don't feel the pain

Just smile back.

Once they were done I had stoped crying and drifted off to sleep

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I honesty love that song if you haven't heard it go hear it