Change me if you can

Chapter 5

- let's start... Come to me, - Azriel said and i did it. He stood up and looked into my eyes. I bit my lip. I was so nervous. I looked down on the floor. He took my chin and i felt his breath. He was close.

-What.... What do you want from me? - I asked him and he gave me a smirk. But he just turned around and then came to the table. I didn't understand what it was and for what he did it. But i was glad that he finished his game.

- I want that you dont leave my home without me until I will say,- he uttered and i nodded. - Okay!? - he repeated.

- Yeah i understood it and i wont. But you need know. I wont do it not because you say me it or i promised you, I wont do it because Jack's here and he heed my help. And i can't give him my help without you. - I uttered and he turned to me. He was annoyed.

- Good, go in your room!- Azriel said and i nodded. I came to the door and turned to him. He didn't look at me. Is he disappointment?

-Azriel, - I said quiet. He turned around and looked into my eyes. - Thank you, thank you so much. I am grateful to you. - I uttered and he gave me a small sad smile.

-You are welcome, - he said and i walked to my room. Heck. I forgot to  ask Azriel. I have a one question. Okay after. I came to Jack. His eyes were opening. I smiled. He saw me and started shook his tail.

- Honey, i'm so happy, - I said and kissed his head. He tried to stand up but I'm not allowed. - No, Jack, you need lie,- I whispered and lied next to him.

I "have" a home, Jack is liying near it all like i wanted. It is fake but i dont think about it now I'm happy in the first after the death of my father. I looked in the window and then i heard a noise. My stomach was sick. Heck i understood that i hadn't eat. I stood up and Jack looked at me

- i'll come back soon, -  I said and walked to the kitchen. I didn't know where it is but i thought it is on the first floor. I came down tire and started to find the kitchen. Yeah! I did it. I smiled and came to the fridge. Then i opened the door and saw a lot of food. I took a meet and paste. And then i came to the slab.

-What are you doing? - I heard a voice and I was scared, it was very unexpected.

-Oh my God, - I yelled and turned around. I saw Azriel, he gave me a smile. - I wanted to eat and i decided to cook,- I said and continued to cook. - Do you wanna eat? - I suggested.

-Yeah, probably. I'll come back soon, - he answered and went away. I just shrugged.

***

-Azriel, come here, - I yelled and sat down on the chair. And started to eat. Then i heard steps and soon Azriel came to me. He looked at my food and sat down next to me.

- Thanks,- Azriel uttered and i just nodded. - By the way there your dog's barking, - he said and i stood up. - Where are you going?

-I want to check him, - I said and walked to the room. I opened the door and saw Jack. He was just laying on the bed. - Hey Jack, are you boring? - I asked and came to him. He became happy. I caressed him and walked to the room.

I came to the table and sat down on the chair. Azriel looked at me. - you're so quickly, - he said and gave me a small smile.

-I know, - I answered and smiled too. - By the way what did vet say about Jack? - I asked Azriel and bit my lip. I need to know what will be with my Jack.

-Well... The vet said that a car hit him. He lost a lot of blood. But we helped him in right time.  Today he cant eat, he should have some rest. Tomorrow you need to give him a medicine. And soon he will be okay. That is all... i think.- he uttered and i nodded. Then he looked into my eyes and i bit my lip again. Heck. I dont like when he so looks at me. 

- Thank you, - i uttered and started to eat. Azriel nodded, - maybe you tell me about yourself, - i suggested. He gave me a sad smile and shook his head. I didn't like this answer and i continued - Why? Tell me, i need to know!

-Listen me i said no, i wont repeat.- he said angry and stood up. I looked at him. - Thank you for your dinner, i need to go.- Azriel said and went away . Nice! You are welcome! I hate him. I stood up and took crockery. Then i came to the sink and started wash it. 

***

I came to my room and stopped. So i want to ask Azriel some question. Then i walked to his room and knocked in the door.  " Yeah?" i heard a Azriel of voice. - Can i go  inside?- i asked him and heard his answer "yes". I opened the door and went inside and came to the table of Azriel.

– How much time i will be here? – I asked him. And bit my lip. He came to the me and looked into my eyes. I was uncomfortable. – I want to know.

- Okay, I think...2 weeks. But if you want more..You can say. I will think about it, – he said and i nodded. Well 2 weeks. For what it needs him?

-Why do you did it? And dont say that «the doctor asked me». For what do you spend your time at me. Because after 2 weeks i do it again. What do you want from me now? – I yelled and then looked into his eyes. He was confused.

-I dont know, I just want to show you a «good life» probably. I want help you, -Azriel said and i shook my head. I started to cry.

-And what? What will be with me later? I will be live on the street again? I will be just smiled when my mom calls me whore? What will be with me after this 2 weeks? – I yelled. i couldnt keep my thoughts inside me anymore. - I think you dont want to help me because you need to know that it is not for me!

- Alisa... Sorry me, I didn't think about it. I dont know... i need to go, - he said and came to the door. I was surprised.

-What? Are you sure? Will you just go away? – I asked and he ignored my words. – Nice! It is very adult! – I yelled and just rolled my eyes. I started to walk to my room.

-Where are you going? – Azriel asked me and i just ignored his words like he ignored my. I went away and walked to my room. Then i opened the door and came to Jack. I hope Azriel wont come to me, because i want be alone now. I wiped a tears. I started caressed head of Jack.

-Hi, I came back, - I uttered and gave him a small smile. I lied on the bed next to him. Jack buried his nose in my arm. - Hey i was missing too, - I said and kissed him in his head. Then i closed my eyes and started dream...

***

I heard a noise and woke up. Then I opened my eyes. I looked around. Heck. I fell asleep. How much time is it? I looked around again and started to find my phone. I couldn't find it. Okay i dont care. Hmm where is Jack? I think he is next to Azriel. I hope Azriel gave to eat him.

I walked to my bathroom, I needed to wash my face.  I know i had a dream. But i cant remember it...  I know i saw my dad. He was happy... I shook my head and came to the mirror and looked at me. I gave me a sadly smile. Then i heard a voice of woman. What? I bit my lip and went away my bathroom.

I long time couldnt leave my room. I was afraid? No i think no... Just it was... uncomfortable for me. Okay, I cant be in my room all day... I came to the output and opened the door. I looked around and saw the door was opening. It was room of Azriel. I bit my lip and walked to the door. I looked inside and saw how Azriel kissed the girl. He looked drunk. I didn't want him to know I'd seen it. So I started to go away but he looked at me and i just ran to the kitchen. I heard a voice of Azriel.

-Alisa...