Our Song

Prologue

Prologue

"Dani! Dani! Wait, let me ex.." I wasn't able to hear him finish his sentence as I ran out of the school and into the parking lot. Seeing the proof of my now gone purity on the sheets in my hands that were moments ago hanging in the locker room.
I just stood there In the middle of the parking lot feeling numb as the silent tears fell down my face, not caring if I was going to get hit by one of the many cars leaving the school. I heard her footsteps before I felt her hand on my shoulder pulling me to her.
Vanessa stood next to me moments before I ran into the boys locker room to steal my sheets back, she heard everything he had said, she heard the cheers of the guys as James told them about taking my Virginity. Everything that I thought was intimate and sacred, everything that he had said to me was just a game. I was the dare of senior year. I was madly in love with James, he had told me he loved me too.
I was silent as Vanessa pushed me towards her car. I was in a daze, not knowing what was real and what wasn't. The ride was silent, the music in the background reminded me of him and I couldn't stop comparing him to every word and every lyric, it all felt to personal, too much.
When the car finally came to stop, I looked around and realized Nessa had driven to the gym. I was beyond happy to be here and not my house were it had happened, I didn't want to be around the memories of what I thought was a real relationship. I looked at Nessa with a greatful smile that probably looked more like a grimace, as my lips trembled and eyes watered again and silent pleading tears ran down my face. She reached over and gave my hand a reassuring squeeze.
Getting out and entering our second home, the giant gymnastics and cheer gym, we walked over and changed in the bathroom and started to warm up doing our usual stretches. After what felt like hours of practicing routines, the chalk on our hands and legs becoming paste from the sweat, "thanks Ness, you're the best." I said as nudged her arm with my shoulder not wanting to get any more chalk on her.
We laid there on the mat for what felt like forever just staring at the high ceiling. "You know I'll always be here for you Dani, just like how I know you'll always be here for me." I smiled not having anything else to say, knowing there was nothing else to say.
Leaving the gym and making our way back to the school to pick up my car I was feeling better knowing that this was the last week of high school, yeah my life just took a complete nose dive, but the fact that I wouldn't ever have to see James again made me feel better.
Getting out of the car I made my way over to my car, "you know, everything is gonna be ok, right Dani?" I looked back with a sad smile, "yeah I know." I smiled and waved at Nessa as she drove away, turning around I found a very disheveled looking boy. He was sitting leaning his head against my car door with a good looking black eye.
It was James.
To say I felt bad would be a lie. He deserved that shiner and whoever did it deserved an award. He looked up from his spot, his green eyes looking tired and I would almost say sorry, "Dani please let me explain." He said looking for some sort of sign to continue.
I rolled my hazel eyes and readjusted my bag on my shoulder, "there's nothing to explain, you did what you did end of story, end of us, if there was even an us." I mumbled the last part as he stood up trying to take my hand which I quickly pulled out of his grasp looking around wondering if anyone was still around the almost deserted parking lot.
"Everything I said was true.." he said trying to get me to look at him before he could finish his sentence I was finishing it for him, "the whole dare? Yeah I know." I was getting beyond upset and frustrated trying to talk to him, I didn't even want to talk to him in the first place. I just wanted to go home and sulk and be by myself.
"No, that's not what I mean and you know it." Now he was getting frustrated trying to get his point across. I rolled my eyes again trying to get my bag and gym clothes into the back seat as he rudely shut the door before I could finish putting my clothes in. I looked at him expecting him to continue. The sooner he was done the sooner I could leave, so I leaned up against the door just waiting to hear his poor excuse of an apology. I gave him a look as to say, "you may continue."
"Listen, it started off as a dare ok. But I just fell in love with you, a-and now everything is fucked up! I didn't know what to do when everyone was asking for the proof that I did the dare. So, so I just caved and gave them the sheets from when we had sex. I'm so sorry Dani I didn't mean for you to see it. I love you! Please, please just give me another chance." He was in tears and trying to grasp my hand. His hands were cold and clammy nothing like how I remembered them.
I just looked at him wide eyed and numb. My lips scrunched up into a snarl as I started to clap my hands in a slow manner. Looking straight into his green eyes, the eyes that I once loved, Once trusted with every part of me. "That's quite the performance James. Now it's my turn to talk."
My patience was done, I was beyond pissed and I just wanted it all to stop, all the games were over. "There could never be any good reason for what you did." I jabbed my finger into his chest making him take a step back. He looked taken aback as I continued, "I trusted you James! I fucking loved you for fucks sakes! And you used me to win a dare, you took every part of me and then you showed it to the whole school!"
I was in tears trying to breathe and get everything out there before the damn broke and my sobs could make their dramatic presence. Shaking my head I continue, "and now you're saying that you still love me and that you're sorry I found out? I'm just s-sorry that I found out so late." And my sobs made an appearance, "I never want to see you again. I could never love someone like you ever again. Goodbye James. I wish I could say goodluck in college but in honesty I really don't care what you do or who you do it with." Every breathe I took was painful, my chest hurt, my eyes hurt every part of me was in pain. I was finally able to get in the car and I skidded out of the school parking lot trying to get as far away from him as possible.
Getting home I threw open the door and ran up to my room ignoring my parents as they called out to me about my day. I threw my door open banging it against the wall, not caring when I heard my mom yelled at me about being careful. Slamming the door shut and flopping on to my bed I grabbed my pillow and yelled until my voice gave out and all that was left of me was a crumpled up shell of who I was. The care free always happy and oblivious to the world Daniella Morine was gone and in her place was a stranger. Someone who was broken and wanted to keep everyone at arms length.
I felt a hand on my back rubbing soothing circles, trying to comfort me. Tommy sat on the corner of my bed with a pained look on his face. My brother, my twin brother was there in the locker room as James boasted about his newest conquest. I turned to see his face so sad but at the same time he tried to plaster a smile on his face for my sake.
"You know I punched that jack ass in the face. He didn't know I was in the their when he, you know...showed your sheets." He was trying so hard to keep his emotions under control. But I could see his anger and disappointment trying to surface through his clenching fists and his hazel eyes turning almost black.
He was my hero, always the best big brother even if it was only by 3 minutes. I grabbed him into a hug and just cried even more. "Thank you for punching him. I saw the shiner, I'm happy he has to have that on his face as we graduate in a few days."
"Yeah he definitely deserved that. It would've been worse if the teacher hadn't have walked in." He laughed making me smile and almost forget about James.
"You know it's going to be ok right? After graduation we're going to be starting UCLA and we're gonna be far away from this state. You're gonna be ruling the gymnasium and I'll be ruling the baseball field." He smiled making me feel better. I smiled back knowing he was right. The next four years were gonna be better then all of high school combined.