Hyunin Ff

Forgivness & Regrett

I.Ns p.o.v:

„ .....Hyunjin I need to be honest with you and I hope you believe me when I tell you that you're the only one that makes me feel this way.

It's like every time I see you I feel this rush of adrenaline and excitement spreading uncontrollably through my body.

That's why it's hard for me to control my actions when I'm around you.
I do dumb things like kiss someone else, even though I actually don't want to."

I feel his chest rising and falling faster and faster while I talk.

„God how do I say this ??

You mean so much to me and I just don't want to loose you.

But I know I messed up, so if there's a way you could forgive me....I'll do anything.

And if not that's totally fine.

I understand if you don't want to be my friend anymore, after involving you in my family problems and not even explaining it or thanking you properly for saving me."

I stop talking and wait for him to relax or say something, but we just stay in this position for a while.

He takes my hand and locks our fingers. Then he finally turns around.

I can see a tear rolling down his cheek.

„I've waited for you to say that, you know", he says with a small smile on his gorgeous face.

„What really ?!", I ask surprised.

He wipes his tears away.

„I'm serious I miss us talking about everything.

Of course this time it was different, because we both hid what was bothering us", he says while trying to stop more tears from falling.

„It's just when I saw you kissing him and him kissing you back, my heart felt like it was about to explode.

I don't even feel angry about it, I just feel disappointed in me for not trying hard enough and for not telling you how I feel.

And it still hurts.

You mean so much to me and seeing you with someone else makes me want to disappear."

He looks down to his feet.

I don't even know how to react.

There's no words so I just wrap my arms around his neck and hug him tightly.

„Don't ever leave me. Promise me that!", I whisper.

He doesn't say anything. „Hyunjin please I can't live without you, I swear if you do something dumb I'll do the same."

Once I say that he immediately agrees:
„No you can't! Okay I promise I won't leave you."

„Good", I softly say.

We break the hug and suddenly the atmosphere kind of changes between us.

We look at each other.

He's kind of sweaty from dance practice which makes him look super hot. And his gaze sends shivers down my back.